Anyways.. After a series of talks, I finally realized that what I'm actually trying to seek and attain is not only knowledge but WISDOM..
I may have alot of knowledge doesnt mean that I have wisdoms that will blow ppl's mind and move them. You see, there are lots of ppl who speaks intellectually, talk alot but nothing sinks in. It is because all they talk abt were either rubbish or facts which ppl are not interested in.
And indeed We bestowed upon Luqmân AlHikmah (wisdom and religious understanding, etc.) saying: "Give thanks to Allâh," and whoever gives thanks, he gives thanks for (the good of) his ownself. And whoever is unthankful, then verily, Allâh is AllRich (Free of all wants), Worthy of all praise. (Luqman 31:12)
The prophet Yusuf (Joseph) was given by Allah Wisdom and Knowledge.
And when he [Yûsuf (Joseph)] attained his full manhood, We gave him wisdom and knowledge (the Prophethood), thus We reward the Muhsinûn (doers of good - see V.2:112). (Yusuf 12:22)
You see, some ppl may be extremely intelligent and geniuses but they dont have wisdom.
For example, I just finished reading a book by James Patterson (Im addicted to books now..no good) about a man who is incredibly intelligent and smart who attained a deep knowledge about whats goin on in the world.. he has the most awareness about poverty, famine, sufferings of people all around the world from oppression, diseases caused by the money grabbers who live at the expense of others. He became so frustrated after failing to convince people to make them aware of whats goin on.. So he was convinced that he should kill to make them aware.. So he became a perfect serial killer with almost perfect plots.
He has lost the wisdom even though undoubtedly he has the knowledge. Moreover, it is surprising where countries such as Japan which is recognized as having the most advanced technology and where are the geniuses come from but unfortunately has the highest suicidal rate. They are smart people, you know what I'm sayin?
Oh Allah, grant us Wisdom and Knowledge and bestow upon us your blessings and prevent us from evil and misfortunes. Amin