One Day, as I came back from uni feeling tired and exhausted.. I became furious quickly when my brother provoked me.. I cant stand being disrespected and challenged in such a humiliating manner.. So, to control my anger, i sat down next to my mum and dad on the sofa.. The conversation begins.....
Dad: what's going on? why do you get angry so quickly?
Me: he (my brother) keep provoking and annoying me, making me feel humiliated and terrible!! he delibrately saying things that will fuel my anger.
Dad: relax... as the eldest, u shud be the role model.. the thing is, ur brother acted like because u acted the same way to him.. u shud b patient and follow the way that the quraan teaches..
I was silent for a while... trying as hard as i can to soften my heart and relieve my anger. mind you i was shouting and arguing with my bro just before..
Mum: you shud do something that he will treat u better..
Me: i think the solution is coming back home very3 late or not coming back at all (i mean moving out to somewhere else).. so that all arguments can be avoided..
Mum & Dad: noo.. thats not right... (and the conversation continues for another 5mins)..
Dad: now let me read to you the ayah in Surah Al-Hujuraat where Allah said in a very precise, beautiful manner..
And he reads Surah Al-Hujuraat with Tajweed and beautiful Tarannum..(Translation):
I seek refuge in Allah, from Satan the Outcast In the Name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful
O you who believe! Do not put (yourselves) forward before Allâh and His Messenger (SAW), and fear Allâh. Verily! Allâh is All-Hearing, All-Knowing. (1)
O you who believe! Raise not your voices above the voice of the Prophet (SAW), nor speak aloud to him in talk as you speak aloud to one another, lest your deeds may be rendered fruitless while you perceive not. (2)
Verily! Those who lower their voices in the presence of Allâh's Messenger (SAW), they are the ones whose hearts Allâh has tested for piety. For them is forgiveness and a great reward. (3)
Verily! Those who call you from behind the dwellings, most of them have no sense. (4)
And if they had patience till you could come out to them, it would have been better for them. And Allâh is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. (5) These five verses had indeed gave a stinging slap on my face.. I was silenced.. I was lost in the comtemplation.. Allah is now talking directly to me.. Ashamed.. dissapointed with myselfl.. Being patient and lowering my voice in any arguments..are indeed one of the best ways to tame ur heart and being convinced that your are indeed the WINNER in the eyes of Allah.. stay calm and stay Cool.. i dont want my rewards are being taken away as they are not even yet sufficient to safe me from the Hellfire.. because indeed I AM A BELIEVER.. not just a Muslim..
And he continues..
O you who believe! If a rebellious evil person comes to you with a news, verify it, lest you harm people in ignorance, and afterwards you become regretful to what you have done. (6)
And know that, among you there is the Messenger of Allâh (SAW). If he were to obey you (i.e. follow your opinions and desires) in much of the matter, you would surely be in trouble, but Allâh has endeared the Faith to you and has beautified it in your hearts, and has made disbelief, wickedness and disobedience (to Allâh and His Messenger SAW) hateful to you. These! They are the rightly guided ones,(7)
(This is) a Grace from Allâh and His Favour. And Allâh is All-Knowing, All-Wise. (8) And if two parties or groups among the believers fall to fighting, then make peace between them both, but if one of them rebels against the other, then fight you (all) against the one that which rebels till it complies with the Command of Allâh; then if it complies, then make reconciliation between them justly, and be equitable. Verily! Allâh loves those who are equitable. (9)
The believers are nothing else than brothers (in Islâmic religion). So make reconciliation between your brothers, and fear Allâh, that you may receive mercy.(10)
This Sura has indeed changed my life alhamdulillah.. I knew that from that moment, I have to change.. xchange for the better..change my habit to actually stop accusing my siblings if anything happens which i always did.. be a role model to my younger ones.. so that I can please my Lord and my parents.. so that I will too please myself and strive to be an ideal believer InshaAllah..
And he added: Do you remember what Luqman adviced his son? I just nodded... Speechless.. He recited another verse..
"And turn not your face away from men with pride, nor walk in insolence through the earth. Verily, Allâh likes not each arrogant boaster. (Luqman 31:18)
"And be moderate (or show no insolence) in your walking, and lower your voice. Verily, the harshest of all voices is the voice (braying) of the ass." (Luqman 31:19) Sadaqallahul Aziim.. Hope u guys did not get bored.. May u guys benefit from what had been written in this entry.. InshaAllah.. Wassalam.. =) PS: Next Entry InshaAllah=> How can your misfortune be a blessing to others? =)
How are u guys goin? InshaAllah in a state of the best health and Emaan (faith) I havnt update my blog eversince the school started i guess.. Days had been interesting really with interseting people and subjects.. It was a pretty busy life but now i just wish to sit and think.. and please my Creator.. InshaAllah
As i walked along the pathways in uni today.. i had come to realise that the 'dead' trees had became 'alive'.. its green again.. and I LOVE IT.. walking along south lawn on a perfect weather.. MashaAllah! Subhanallah! what a wonderful feeling! I felt that my heart and my mind is free.. peace and serenity rushed into my bloodstream and the wind just blew away my sorrows and hardships..
When u think abt it, even u know that the sky is always blue, the clouds are always white, the grasses are always green, but u will never feel sick of it.. imagine u sat in a room with the latest design furnitures and electronics, one day u will definitely feel bored of it.. u'll probably wanted to buy a new one.. hence its temporary.. but nature that Allah has created, u will never ever feel bored looking at it. never feel restricted to look at it and never feel regretful pondering abt it.. never that it will harm u in any way.. very interesting Subhanallah!
yeah next time ur on the way to school, to uni, or to work, have a look around you, above you and infront of you that sometimes that u may overlooked.. experience the beauty.. inhale the serene atmosphere.. enjoy the moment of peacefulness.. and im sure everyone of us will experience the feeling of bliss and gratefulness to The Lord of The Worlds..
Signing Off, Umairah
Controlling My Anger..
Monday, October 12, 2009
a' oothubillahi minash shaitoonir rajiim..
Kwn2.. sesungguhnye aku sedang menahan marah.. sejak kebelakangan ni mcm cepat darah naik tapi tahan punye tahan.. 1stly asyik marah dgn diri sendiri je yg slalu react sblm berfikir.. terasa diri ni byk sgt2 dosa dan tak layak utk seorg suami yg soleh.. sentiase rase diri ni buat kesilapan dan slow sgt2.. apasal eh.? byk sgt dosa n maksiat yg aku dah buat ke sampai ilmu pon susah nk paham.. quraan pun susah nk hafal.. mungkin effort tu kurang.. tapi skrg mmg frust sgt2.. lebih baik aku diam.. diam seribu bahase.. sbb Rasulullah pernah bersabda: "Barangsiapa yg beriman kepada Allah dan hari akhirat, hendaklah dia berkata2 yg baik ataupun diam.."
ntahlah sejak dua menjak ni emosi tak stabil lah.. nk kate ade relationship problem xde pon haha.. relationship aku dgn Penciptaku barangkali.. mungkin aku semakin hari semakin melupakanNya.. sibuk dgn dunia dan nikmat dan lupa nk bersyukur? Mungkin dan Mungkin...
Skrg aku tgh nk lunakkan hati aku dgn baca hadith2 ttg anger management.. Byk sbnrnye yg berlaku yg telah menaikkan darahku ceh.. cikgu aku pon tadi mmg sgt2 sakitkan hati mencabar aku sbg seorg Muslimah.. tak pernah seumur aku hidup seseorg itu mempersoalkan ttg agama aku sedang dia itu jahil ttg agama.. aku taknk ckp ah sbb aku tadi dah terckp dgn sesorg dahtu menyesal lak sbb mengumpat.. Haiz,. Astaghfirullahal aziim!!
Dan jugak hal2 yg lain.. that has contributed to my frustrations.. Anyways.. mesti kuat Umairah!! Reminder for Me aka Umairah Joffri of What our beloved Prophet has mentioned:
"Do not become angry and Paradise will be yours (a saheeh hadeeth, see Saheeh al-Jaami’, 7374. Ibn Hijr attributed it to al-Tabaraani, see al-Fath 4/465):
Remembering what Allaah has promised to the righteous (muttaqeen) who keep away from the causes of anger and struggle within themselves to control it, is one of the most effective ways of extinguishing the flames of anger. One of the ahaadeeth that describe the great reward for doing this is:
"Whoever controls his anger at the time when he has the means to act upon it, Allaah will fill his heart with contentment on the Day of Resurrection."
(Reported by al-Tabaraani, 12/453, see also Saheeh al-Jaami’, 6518).
Therefore Umairah, If you love Allah and His Messenger, you must struggle and strive against the whispering of shayaatiin and try as hard as u can to obey Allah and His Messenger.. You wouldnt want to dissapoint them my dear nafs..
Ya Maqaalibal Quluub.. Thabbit Quluubana 'ala diinik wa Thoo'atik..
I was ashamed..
Thursday, October 8, 2009
“The Quraan and the sunnah are like the two wings of a bird: If either of them were broken, it could not be able to fly.. “ “ Knowledge will never stay in your heart unless you love it”
I was amazed by a friend of mine.. He's an aussie in my arabic class. He is not a Muslim.. He is a Historian i guess.. he knows lots of stuff abt the world, the war, the politics, conspiracies etc.. He's knowledgable.. We had an hour chat outside the building after arabic class just now.. there were 4 of us.. We discussed randomly abt lots of topic.. and of course religious topic came out.. and suddenly the guy goes.. “yeah i read that in my quraan.. my quraan a lil small n i have to use a magnify glass to read it..” I thought to myself if i had misheard wat he said.. then out of curiosity, i asked him again.. “What did u say?” He goes.." my quraan, i have it in my bag” and he took out his quraan with translation from his bag. The Noble Quraan with commentary and translation published by Darussalam.. It is the one of most recommended and authentic translation that we ‘ve got these days. I was startled.. And im ashamed.. He then said goes on something like this:.. “I like to read it with understanding and i hate rode learning. Learning something but u don’t know where the sources are and why God asked u to.” Hmm Im like "yeah ure right.. and most of the time the commentary helps when we don’t really understand what it meant and when its ambiguous.” He even said something about tafseer!! Im like reflecting on myself.. Am I as keen as him to learn what our Lord has said? Why Im lazying around and not trying to read what My Lord has said whilst proclaimed that I am submitting myself to Him? Woe to me.. Woe to me.. I have to be better as I am a Muslim and a servant of Allah. I have to strive as a student of knowledge to know My Lord and to love everything that He loves and hate everything that He hates.. Oh Allah, There is no Lord worthy to be worshipped but You. Verily my prayers, my deeds, my life and my death is for no one but YOU! Action Plan: Buy The noble quraan at ibc Reading Quraan at least 5 pages a day with meanings n tafseer.. anywhere and everywhere.. be that in the bus, in the tram and in the train.. InshaAllah!! Oh Allah, help me to gain Your pleasure and protect me from the evil plans of Syaitaan!! Amin
“A goal is a dream, unless its written down on paper and acted upon to achieve it!”
For every hardship, is relief.. = )
In The Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful
" Have We not opened your breast for you (O Muhammad (peace be upon him))?
And removed from you your burden
Which weighed down your back
And have We not raised high your fame?
VERILY, ALONG WITH EVERY HARDSHIP IS RELIEF,
VERILY, ALONG WITH EVERY HARDSHIP IS RELIEF (i.e. there is one hardship with two reliefs, so one hardship cannot overcome two reliefs).
So when you have finished (your occupation), denote yourself to Allah's worship.
And to your Lord (Alone) turn (all your) intentions and hopes.""
Surah 94 Ash-Sharh ( The Opening Forth)
Assalamulaikum.. How r u guys? (if there's one reading it hehe)
Im great Alhamdulillah! =) It was really great today.. For some reason i was smiling all day.. I dont noe why tho.. i noe its weird but its a blessing from Allah! The Lord of the Worlds.. Subhanallah Wal hamdulillah Wa lailaha illa Allah Wa Allahu Akbar!! Allah has lifted the burden on me because He wills to..
Indeed, the verses above had soften my heart.. telah meluluhkan hatiku.. Remebering how stressful i was yesterday.. how depsperate and despondent i was.. and today i felt totally different.. its the inner strength that i gained.. its from Allah who gave me this strength and positiveness... Verily, along with hardship is relief.. this verse is very tru indeed.. It had made a significant impact on my life.. NEVER EVER LOSE HOPE IN ALLAH.. Stay calm n patient..
Honestly, I actually failed my test today which was horrible.. but i knew it was 100% my own fault. even though i studied, probably i didnt study enough.. Ive gotta do something.. Gotta start studying MORE SERIOUSLY from today.. Hmm i will have to do my arabic Hw today and tomorrow EDDA assignment which is due on mon.. arabic hw due on mon, fri test on tues.. pretty packed man!
Anyways Alhamdulillah.. Im grateful.. Allah the Exalted said in the Quraan: "And (remember) when your Lord proclaimed: "If you give thanks (by accepting Faith and worshipping none but Allah), I will give you more (of My Blessings); but if you are thankless (i.e disbelievers), verily My punishment is severe." Surah Ibrahim: 7
Now, Im trying to be thankful in anything.. Im indeed just a servant of Allah.. Is imperfect and sinful.. But I know that Allah is Most Forgiving.. He listens to those who seek His help His guidance and His favours. But I have to keep improving.. to be an obedient servant and trying to Love Him and those who seeks His Love..
Im trying to question every single act that I did, doesnt it gain His Pleasure or Anger??
May Allah accepts all our deeds and prayers InshaAllah AMin. =)
SIgning off.. Umaiz90
Scattered.. kusut.. celaru.. bingung..
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Bissmillahirrahmanirrahim. ALLAHUMMA LA SAHLA ILLA MA JA'ALTAHU SAHLA WA ANTA TAJ'ALUL HAZNA IZA SHI'TA SAHLA..
Ya Allah tidaklah mudah sesuatu perkara itu melainkan Kau menjadikan sesuatu itu mudah.. (this is not the translation btw)
Ish kusut.. sgt2 kusut kat otak ni.. bila berjauhan, mcm rindu, bila hari2 jumpe.. nk lari pon ade.. haha.. relax2 tgh ckp pasal sekolah ni.. kelmarin cuti mcm rindu sekolah.. tapi biler dah start sekolah, ish nk lari!!! byknye assignments yg x buat lagi.. byknye test yg coming up..online lain, yg written lain... Ya Allah.. byk lectures aku x cover lagi.. seriously skrg aku sgt2 buntu.. nk minta tlg kwn, nanti dorg ingat ape.. sbb aku ni nk mintak tlg je cari kwn dahtu nanti dah habis buat bodoh.. dah tu nk wat mcmne ni??
sejak keblkgn ni rase mcm x sedap hati lah.. this week since abah aku kat s'pore sbb emergency nenek aku sakit, aku mcm x tentu arah.. byk nk settle beb.. tulah waktu cuti x terpikir pon bende2 ni. dah bukak sekolah.. 1001 bende kat dlm kepala otak aku ni.. esok aku ade quiz due tapi sempat eh update blog.. sbb aku tak tahan ah.. mesti nk luahkan jgk..
this week jgk aku tdo merata2... maksud aku tidor sane sini.. on sat, tdo umah kwn aku, on mon sampai hari ni tdo rumah makcik aku.. esok balik kot.. hari ni habis awal ingat nk study tapi aku xleh focus ah. padahal tdo nyenyak tau smlm.. xah nyenyak sgt.. maksud aku awal.. tapi mcm rase something yg x kene ah.. x tau ape.. Aku constantly doa byk2 semoga Allah tenangkan aku.. mungkin aku kene Muhasabah diri baliklah.. byk sgt dosa2 yg aku buat sampai aku celaru mcm ni..
dahtu dah pindah ni alamat surat aku semua blm tukar.. internet blm settle, nk kene call tapi aku x balik rumah mcm ne... ish..
byk sbnrnye ilmu nk share dari alkauthar course yg aku attend tapi time limited ah.. inshaAllah lain kali je.. nk solat zohor ni.. dah lewat.. ish3.. umairah ape nk jadi nih....
Fitrah Manusia... Sequel of previous entry
Friday, October 2, 2009
Dimanakah fitrah manusia Kasih sayang kini dunia sudah kehilangannya Kasih sayang sudah gersang
yang ada hidup sendiri yg wujud hasad dengki yg ada prejudice yg wujud perbalahan disetiap hari
Dimana sahaja hidup KEPURA-PURAAN SENYUM DIHADAPAN DIBELAKANG DIBENCI PERCAYA MEMPERCAYAI SUDAH HILANG Perkelahian peperangan tidak kunjung padaM
yang miskin terbiar dan terbuang yang kaya bakhil tamak dan sombong
TIPU MENIPU JADI BUDAYA CURI RASUAH SERING BERLAKU ZINA DAN ROGOL LUMRAH TERJADI KRISIS PERPERANGAN DI MERATA DUNIA
MANA PERGI DIDALAM KETAKUTAN KEMANA BERADA DI DLM KEBIMBANGAN HATI SENTIASA TIDAK SENANG DAN TENANG KEBAHAGIAAN SUDAH LAMA HILANG DAN GERSANG
Manusia oh Manusia..
Mengapa dikala keamanan, manusia membuat kekacauan? Mengapa dikala keharmonian, manusia membuat kehancuran? Mengapa dikala kejayaan, manusia saling menjatuhkan??
Aku tak faham lah manusia.. org melayu specifically.. no offence but seriously, why are they doin these things to us?? knp tak senang bila melihat org lain mesra, ramah dan behagia?? mesti ke nk hancurkan kebahagiaan.. kenapa manusia nk mengata ttg ape yg org lain ade? rumah, kereta, kerje, walimah, etc.. the list goes on.. tak menyusah kite kan kan?
BE PROACTIVE!! kate ust supermuslim... Jangan nk menyalahkan org lain je. jgn nk cari kesalahan org.. Investigate lah dulu baru blame.. bak kate pakar motovasi terkenal.. 90% of our life is determined by our reaction to what happened.. 10% of which u can control, 90% of which we have control over.. kalau sesuatu perkara tu terjadi, pikir dulu kenape? ape yg diri sendiri lakukan.. kalau nak start scape goating kan nanti kecoh satu kampung..
utk org yg dizalimi, perbykkanlah berdoa.. kite pon akan turut same berdoa semua kebenaran resurface.. sesungguhnye ini ujian utk kite semua.. yg penting, mcmne kite nk react?? tu yg paling susah.. lepas satu bertaut, yg lagi satu terputus..
tu lah kdg2 bkn tk nk campur org. cuma lebih selesa kalau bergaul dgn org2 yg memahami kite,, memahami diri kite dan situasi kite.. sbb tu keharmonian tu dtg.. kalau tup2 org luar dtg dahtu perkara berlaku, org tu x tau ape yg terjadi.. mulalah accuse one another.. the worst is dia cari lagi kesalahan utk menta'kidkan bahwa dia berada di pihak yg benar.. Semoga ALlah memberi kesedaran kat org yg menzalimi tu.. Sesungguhnye Allah mengetahui siape dipihak yg benar. dan sesungguhnya Allah bersama2 org yg sabar..
kite tgklah sejauh mana org yg berbuat zalim tu boleh pergi.. Allah tu Maha Adil..
kdg2 org2 yg 'high class' n 'educated' ni silap jgk.. abuse org2 yg dianggap 'bawah' dari dia.. tu yg susah tu.. sbb dia pikir dia paling bagus n susah nk accept other's opinions, especially yg dianggap 'bawahan'.. yg xde degree, lebih muda, xde experience etc2... ni reminder utk aku gak.. jgn pandang rendah kat org lain.. kalau xleh pandang org tu wat bodoh jek ah eh..
tapi bile kite pikir balik, mcmne Rasulullah (saw) manusia yg paling sabar dan uswah yg terbaik atas muka bumi ni react waktu dia dicaci maki, dihina, difitnah...diumpat depan2.. dia tetap sabar je..
kite ni sesama islam, sesama melayu, duduk di satu negeri, satu kampung.. kalau nak menzalimi each other mcmne nk hidup beb?.. manusia xleh hidup sendirian.. nak mati pon org lain nk kene mandikan n kebumikan.. pikir2 lah ye..
RABBANA DZOLAMNA ANFUSANA WA IN LAM TAGHFIGHLANA WATARHAMNA LANAKU NANNA MINAL KHOOSIRIN...
PS: kalau dah tak selesa duk kat suatu tmpt tu, jgn nk blame the surrounding.. cari punca diri sendiri dulu.. usaha dahtu kalau xleh angkat.. pindah ah.. jgn nk menyusahkan org lain.. DOSA byk ooh buat2 cite n fitnah2 org..
btw ni 1st draft.. waktu tulis ni tgh emo ckit.. so maaf2lah kau terkasar tu ye..
Ahlan Wa Sahlan!! Wa Marhaban Bikum!!
The Seeker of Truth..
Assalamualaykum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh..;DD
Welcome to my life!
Alhamdulillah, indeed i am suprised that I actually created a blog my first ever blog hahaha.. it sounds pretty awkward but its true.
Now, Lets open up your hearts and mind.. free ur thoughts and imagination.. Blogging is just one of the medium that we can express our feelings and thoughts.. sharing our knowledge with others as well as sharing our concerns towards others...
"O Mankind! We have created you from a male and female, and made you into nations and tribes, that you may know one another. Verily, the most honourable of you with Allah is that (believer) who has At-Taqwa[ie he is one of the Muttaqoon (the pious). Verily, Allah is All-Knowing, Well Acquainted(with all things)."
Al-Hujuraat:13