Salams,

The Weekend has just passed. I cant believe it is week 11! Another 1 more week we’re done for this year.. And the Battle begins.. I haven’t start any revision. Its very2 bad. Allah.. Although Im actually doin only 3 subjects.. 10 contact hours, half less than last semester because Im doing Arabic diploma alongside with my degree, I still feel that I don’t have time to revise or read.

Actually ,This Semester I have preoccupied myself with various voluntary activities. Be it from SALP University, Islamic Society, Community. I am enjoying myself so much. On the other hand, my studies were ignored. Hmm.. Im loving all my subjects except for genetics which sometimes too uncertain. But I definitely enjoy Islam in the modern world and Arabic although Im not that good at it.

Anyways, along the way I did experienced friendship, responsibilities, lethargy, annoyance, a lil bit of hatred sometimes(although Im not supposed to), disappointment, appreciation, rejection, ignorance, compliment, contentment and being reprimanded.

In life there are always things that you look for. A place for you to share you r opinions, laughter and hardship. There are places where you could only laughter but never cry on, where you could be serious but never laugh and a place where you could be serious, and laugh but never cry on.

You went to search all around you. Be it an organization, school mate, colleague, friends but you were unable to find a suitable place for you to settle. Ultimately you realized that there is something wrong somewhere. You started to question yourself. What is goin on? What is happening around the world? The world doesn’t seem friendly to me? I don’t belong anywhere..

In fact you have not asked yourself : Am I looking in the right place? Then you realized that you have to change yourself first. You have to spend time contemplating, reflecting and discovering who are you? What am I created for? What are my responsibilities? Why am I here? Why am I a human? The question goes on and on....

Suddenly you became frustrated. There’s no way out. You cant find any contentment, any solutions which will satisfy your quest. You have given up. You feel like you are useless in this world. You are not good with anything. You became depressed.. no one to turn to.. and then.. you remember one word.. Allah.....