Those words are the only words in my mind right now.. im totally lost, desperately need guidance from the Lord of the Worlds.. Im desparate indeed.. i cant express myself in an orderly manner..
Im scattered..

Sometimes i felt regretful why cant i be like them? Im supposed to do this n that n I shudnt do this and that.. I felt humiliated, discouraged, discontent with myself.. dissapointment, disheartened..

I have to occupy myself somehow this 3 months holiday.. I hav no idea what to do.. shud i commit myself by looking for a job? im lack of self confidence thats the problem.. I felt incompetent to do any work.. i havent find the answer that satisfy my quest..

what shud i do, what must i do, what am i supposed to do? its really hard to please everyone..
I guess i need a space to think n ponder n reflect.. i havent done that for quite some time..

With cascade of events happening in my life recently, i just realised that i dun have a time spent for myself to reflect.. Therefore im going out tomoro.. nowhere to go but i'll follow my instinct..

Oh God, please guide me.. No guidance shall i crave for except for Your Guidance!