a' oothubillahi minash shaitoonir rajiim..

Kwn2.. sesungguhnye aku sedang menahan marah.. sejak kebelakangan ni mcm cepat darah naik tapi tahan punye tahan.. 1stly asyik marah dgn diri sendiri je yg slalu react sblm berfikir.. terasa diri ni byk sgt2 dosa dan tak layak utk seorg suami yg soleh.. sentiase rase diri ni buat kesilapan dan slow sgt2.. apasal eh.? byk sgt dosa n maksiat yg aku dah buat ke sampai ilmu pon susah nk paham.. quraan pun susah nk hafal.. mungkin effort tu kurang.. tapi skrg mmg frust sgt2.. lebih baik aku diam.. diam seribu bahase..
sbb Rasulullah pernah bersabda: "Barangsiapa yg beriman kepada Allah dan hari akhirat, hendaklah dia berkata2 yg baik ataupun diam.."

ntahlah sejak dua menjak ni emosi tak stabil lah.. nk kate ade relationship problem xde pon haha.. relationship aku dgn Penciptaku barangkali.. mungkin aku semakin hari semakin melupakanNya.. sibuk dgn dunia dan nikmat dan lupa nk bersyukur? Mungkin dan Mungkin...

Skrg aku tgh nk lunakkan hati aku dgn baca hadith2 ttg anger management.. Byk sbnrnye yg berlaku yg telah menaikkan darahku ceh.. cikgu aku pon tadi mmg sgt2 sakitkan hati mencabar aku sbg seorg Muslimah.. tak pernah seumur aku hidup seseorg itu mempersoalkan ttg agama aku sedang dia itu jahil ttg agama.. aku taknk ckp ah sbb aku tadi dah terckp dgn sesorg dahtu menyesal lak sbb mengumpat.. Haiz,. Astaghfirullahal aziim!!

Dan jugak hal2 yg lain.. that has contributed to my frustrations.. Anyways.. mesti kuat Umairah!!
Reminder for Me aka Umairah Joffri of What our beloved Prophet has mentioned:

"Do not become angry and Paradise will be yours (a saheeh hadeeth, see Saheeh al-Jaami’, 7374. Ibn Hijr attributed it to al-Tabaraani, see al-Fath 4/465):

Remembering what Allaah has promised to the righteous (muttaqeen) who keep away from the causes of anger and struggle within themselves to control it, is one of the most effective ways of extinguishing the flames of anger. One of the ahaadeeth that describe the great reward for doing this is:

"Whoever controls his anger at the time when he has the means to act upon it, Allaah will fill his heart with contentment on the Day of Resurrection."

(Reported by al-Tabaraani, 12/453, see also Saheeh al-Jaami’, 6518).

Therefore Umairah, If you love Allah and His Messenger, you must struggle and strive against the whispering of shayaatiin and try as hard as u can to obey Allah and His Messenger.. You wouldnt want to dissapoint them my dear nafs..

Ya Maqaalibal Quluub.. Thabbit Quluubana 'ala diinik wa Thoo'atik..