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Nouman Ali Khan – A Believer’s response to the Quran Burning Event

2011-01-12T00:00:00.000+11:00

Nouman Ali Khan – A Believer’s response to the Quran Burning Event

A very intelligent response indeed! MashaAllah!

Wisdom & Knowledge

2010-12-06T18:03:00.003+11:00

There seems to be an error on tumblr so I decided to write on blogger.

Anyways.. After a series of talks, I finally realized that what I'm actually trying to seek and attain is not only knowledge but WISDOM..

I may have alot of knowledge doesnt mean that I have wisdoms that will blow ppl's mind and move them. You see, there are lots of ppl who speaks intellectually, talk alot but nothing sinks in. It is because all they talk abt were either rubbish or facts which ppl are not interested in.

And indeed We bestowed upon Luqmân AlHikmah (wisdom and religious understanding, etc.) saying: "Give thanks to Allâh," and whoever gives thanks, he gives thanks for (the good of) his ownself. And whoever is unthankful, then verily, Allâh is AllRich (Free of all wants), Worthy of all praise. (Luqman 31:12)

The prophet Yusuf (Joseph) was given by Allah Wisdom and Knowledge.

And when he [Yûsuf (Joseph)] attained his full manhood, We gave him wisdom and knowledge (the Prophethood), thus We reward the Muhsinûn (doers of good - see V.2:112). (Yusuf 12:22)

You see, some ppl may be extremely intelligent and geniuses but they dont have wisdom.

For example, I just finished reading a book by James Patterson (Im addicted to books now..no good) about a man who is incredibly intelligent and smart who attained a deep knowledge about whats goin on in the world.. he has the most awareness about poverty, famine, sufferings of people all around the world from oppression, diseases caused by the money grabbers who live at the expense of others. He became so frustrated after failing to convince people to make them aware of whats goin on.. So he was convinced that he should kill to make them aware.. So he became a perfect serial killer with almost perfect plots.

He has lost the wisdom even though undoubtedly he has the knowledge. Moreover, it is surprising where countries such as Japan which is recognized as having the most advanced technology and where are the geniuses come from but unfortunately has the highest suicidal rate. They are smart people, you know what I'm sayin?

Oh Allah, grant us Wisdom and Knowledge and bestow upon us your blessings and prevent us from evil and misfortunes. Amin

I'm moving..

2010-12-04T12:40:00.003+11:00

Salams..

Hey Peps, Im transferring all my posts from blogger to tumblr coz it

looks soooo much better lol.. but i've got my sis to show me how to use this complicated thing..

Stay updated! If there's anyone who's actually reading my blog..

Its ready! But nothing much just yet..

http://umairahjoffri.tumblr.com/

Naseeha on Good Health and Free Time (two favours) by Dr Ibrahim Dremali

2010-12-03T10:02:00.000+11:00

Subhanallah wa bihamdih subhanallahil adziim..

2010-12-03T09:25:00.000+11:00

The World we are living in today..

2010-12-02T19:24:00.003+11:00

i feel sick after reading a book.. based on true stories..
about the sufferings of the people in a country where girls were denied rights to live.. being killed alive soon after birth.. people live in poverty.. deprived and degraded.. girl babies left in cold winter frozen to death but no one cares.. but what makes me sick even more is that there are people around them, who lives next to them, who rules over them, who are capable of making a change, assist them financially, emotionally, physically, but they are too selfish and too busy with their own lives to pursue their materialistic desires, leaving their humanity behind..
What a world we're living in??

They dont deserve such humiliation

They dont deserve such dehumanization

They have rights to live

But why people are too ignorant?

Such portrayal however does not weaken or leave me in despair.. In fact, it strengthens my soul for I am needed to change the world.. It makes me more hopeful to The Almighty that one day, this world that we're living in will be a better place for each and every soul to live in.. InshaAllah..

Deep inside, I am very grateful for everything I have.. Alhamdulillah... Subhanallah wabihamdih Subhanallahil adziim..

Leaving no space, no excuse, no reason for me to complain..

I am grateful to know that I have been blessed with the teachings of Islam..

Oh Allah, The One who creates the heaven and the earth, bring back the honor of Islam, help my brothers and sisters in Islam In Palestine, in Iraq, in China, in Indonesia, In Europe and all over the world. Ya Azeez! Let not them be oppressed, subjugated and humiliated.. And give them strength to face all trials n tribulations.. Reward them Oh Allah!

For the patience and steadfastness to your religion. Amin

Because it really hurts to know that they are suffering whilst I am not doing anything to change the world..

ATF: Lazy Jokes

2010-12-02T10:18:00.000+11:00

اللهم اني أعوذ بك من الهم والحزن والعجز والكسل والجبن والبخل وغلبة الدين وقهر الرجال

Oh Allah, I take refugr with You from anxiety and sorrow, inability and laziness, miserliness and cowardice, the burden of debts and from being over powered by men.

-Fortress of a Muslim

ATF: Why can't we change? PART 1

2010-12-02T09:44:00.000+11:00

Really need this book!

2010-12-01T22:55:00.002+11:00

salams..

Ive been searching for a book titled 'A Short History of Islam' by S.E Al-Djazairi. Whoever knows where I can find it, please inform me.

Really thirsty for knowledge here..

lost in words

2010-12-01T19:47:00.003+11:00

I dont know why I have became silent these days.. When I say silent, I mean I listen more that I speak and I dont know what to talk about and how to respond to people. I would rather smile or laugh. I have lost my words..

There are times of course when I talked too much but that doesnt happen outside. rather it occurs at home or with someone Im really close to. Have I lost my social skills?

I dont really know what is wrong with me sometimes.. i speak like a high school students and I'm in uni.. My english is appalling. Oh well, I dont need to talk as much as I need to..

And yeah, I'm really bad in conversations nowadays especially with guys. I keep it very formal and straight forward. I will say what I need to and stop talking. As for the girls, it depends, really.

Some girls I can just talk and talk non-stop.. Some I could just speak a few words and smile. Thats happens if we have nothing in common.

I feel very sick currently with my flu, cough and headache. Maybe its just the weather or probably my body is just weak generally. SO yeah.

I have to admit that I am not an interesting person to hang out with coz I usually do shopping by myself. I cant shop when someone is with me.. Because I shop for kitchenware and food. LOL.. Not clothes at all so yeah..

Oh well thats me. A great friend is someone who befriends you for what you are, not only what u do. Be it if ur angry, sad, happy etc, they will always be ur friends. Thats all I could say I guess.

Amazing Story: This Flame is Nothing

2010-12-01T01:20:00.000+11:00

Amazing Story: This Flame is Nothing

Verses & Signs To Ponder..

2010-12-01T01:18:00.000+11:00

"Verily, those who have believed, and those who have emigrated (for Allâh’s Religion) and have striven hard in the Way of Allâh, all these hope for Allâh’s Mercy. And Allâh is Oft-Forgiving, Most-Merciful."(Surah Al-Baqara :218)

Do you think that you shall be left alone while Allâh has not yet tested those among you who have striven hard and fought and have not taken Walîjah [(Batanah - helpers, advisors and consultants from disbelievers, pagans, etc.) giving openly to them their secrets] besides Allâh and His Messenger, and the believers. Allâh is Well-Acquainted with what you do. (Surah At-Taubah:16)

May Allah Guide us.

[extracted from Facebook message]

In Team - Sentuhanmu

2010-11-30T17:24:00.000+11:00

Dedicated to my Beloved Dad.. Joffri Bin Mohamed

2010-11-30T13:00:00.001+11:00

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Sometimes we do overlook the sacrifice and the role of our father in the family. We used his money frivolously, without thinking about how hard he works to earn that amount..

As for my dad, I truly respect and admire him. He works really hard for our family. He is the breadwinner. I know I should work but I cant drive therefore it will be harder for me to travel to work. I should start driving. I have called the instructor and ask her to get back to me.

Thats the first step to help the family. You see, my doesnt drive and doesnt work.

My dad is a very busy man. Sometimes, I do feel sorry for him.

From monday to friday,

7-8.30am both of my parents works part time at Epping

9am-2pm They both have an english class

2-4.15pm After classes, they usually go to pick up my siblings who finish at 3.40ish and Journey back home is approx 20min

4.20-4.45pm Reach home. Have lunch and if he is lucky, he will get a nap. But he usually needs to pick me up at this time from the station

4.50pm He has to get ready for work

5-11.00pm He works at the city which is 40mins journey from home

11.40pm Reach home at this time

Friday: Islamic Studies Classes every Friday from 7.30pm-10.30ish.....

My mum usually waits for him every night.

Plus Weekend..

8.00am Needs to send my sister off to saturday school at Bruswick

10.00am-2pm His Quran Class

3pm- Back for Lunch

4pm Sends my Brothers to Soccer

5pm Off to work till 12am

12.40am reach Home

8.30am Get up for Sunday School

10.00-2pm Teaching @ Madrasah

3pm Back home if lucky (ie no Meetings)

3-5pm Meetings

6-10pm Usually go to our relatives' houses or

6.30-8.40 Islamic Studies Class @ IISNA

11pm Back Home.. next cycle

I dont know how he is able to do all this everyday. He has an inner strength which enables him to do so. Oh Allah, Grant my parents the Highest Paradise in the Hereafter.

ربي إغفرلي ولوالدي وارحمهما كما ربياني صغيرا ربنا آتنا في الدنيا حسنة وفي الآخرة حسنة وقنا عذاب النار

My Promise to you my father, I will study very hard and my very best InshaAllah. I will fulfill your wish InshaAllah to be a Muslim Doctor who serves the Ummah for the sake of Allah.

To you oh My Lord, Ya Rahmaan Ya Raheem! I invoke Your Most Beautiful Names Ya Azeez to make my journey to knowledge and understanding easy! Ya Wahhab! Ya Rabb! يسر ولا تعسر

What is Knowledge Hive?

2010-11-29T23:21:00.000+11:00

King of Kings - Understanding the Names and Attributes of Allah :: Melbo...

2010-11-29T22:50:00.002+11:00

Another mind blowing course that I went to yesterday.. MashaAllah most of the doubts and questions I had in my mind were answered..

Although there are still alot of confusions out there.. Ultimately, if we return to the Quran and Sunnah, everything in the world will make sense. I swear..

There is no use for us to label others as Salafi, Wahabi etc as long as they believe in Allah and Muhammad as HIs Messenger and believe what has been revealed through the divine book, Al-Quraan Al-Kareem, i couldnt care less.

This Ummah needs to be united, not deviated. Im not convinced about anything without clarification and evidence from the Quran n Sunnah and those practiced by the Companions of the Prophets.

There is no need for us to ridicule, label, criticize each other as we dont have time to do that..

To my dear Umises whether u read this or not, remember when we had such wonderful times organizing IAW? How organized we were by the will of Allah, the events turned out great?

And we all know that we are doin all this for the sake of Allah.. the more we want to be closer to Allah, bear in mind that we will be tested. This is our test. Seek Allah's guidance so that we could solve this matter in the best manner inshaAllah. And we need to pass this test and not dissolve.

I truly love UMIS and strive for Islam, at the same time, I need to bear in mind that I will be tested. I ask Allah to make it easy for us to go through all the trials and tribulation in striving for His cause and we will be the savior of the Ummah who really needs us right now. We cant afford to lose anyone over a small matter.

I am looking fwd to go to the knowledge hive inshaAllah.. but a lil bit nervous abt the exam..

InshaAllah khayr.

اللهم رب جبريل وميكائل و اسرافيل فاطر السماوات والارض أنت تحكم بين عبادك فيما كانوا فيه يختلفون اهدنا لما إختلف فيه من الحق بإذنك انك لتهدي من تشاء قدير وأنت حسبنالله ونعم الوكيل

Meet Sh Alaa ElSayed | Home Sweet Home |

2010-11-29T21:17:00.000+11:00

Im coming to this one too inshaAllah =D

Loving the weather.. =D

2010-11-29T05:26:00.003+11:00

Salams everyone,

It has been some time since I update my blog.

Days had been very busy with various activities.. I always have something to do every single day and I must plan my day if not I'll be slacking..

Anyways, weather in Melbourne has been very hectic over the week.. I remembered last monday it was 34C.. scorching hot. and after 2 days it rains heavily and it flooded and hailed..

It kept raining till the temperature reached 12C which is freezing cold for Spring I reckon.. and few days till summer..

Melbourne's weather is subhanallah very unique. Im loving it =D

Imagine going through 35-40C every single day for 3 months I dont think I can survive. SO alhamdulillah thank God Melbourne has 4 seasons in a day =D. Although it is because of climate change, I dont think it is pure evil.. There are some positive aspects of it..I reckon..

Im longing going to the beach.........=(

I'm done Alhamdulillah.. =D

2010-11-18T19:01:00.002+11:00

Salams..

18th November 2010 marked the end of my 2nd semester of my 2nd year.. Im goin to third year inshaAllah.. 2 n half yr to be precise coz I deferred to do my Arabic diploma..

I did pretty bad in my Arabic Oral. I wud say that was my worst oral of all. It has alot of facts. Not just conversations. The topics covered were pretty boring sometime as it has a lit of complicated expressions which are beyond my interest hehe.. But InshaAllah I will manage to pass this and move on next year.

I truly believe in this: Verily, after every hardship, the is relief. I was soo depressed before but alhamdulillah by the will of Allah I have managed to overcome it.

Allah doesnt burden a soul m0re than what he could bear. And Indeed I have acknowledged that it is not possible for The Creator of the heaven and the earth, the universe to actually make yourhard exams easy if He wishes. Subhanallah wa bihamdihi Subhanallahil azdhiim..

Alhamdulillah..

Now, Need to plan my Summer Holiday Project... Ive got 13 weeks 3 days aka 94 days to do everything that I need to as well as prepare myself psychologically, physically, physiologically, spiritually for the hot weather.. InshaAllah Khayr.. =D

Mode: Panicking... =S

2010-11-14T21:17:00.004+11:00

Salams..

Today's date is 15th November 2010. Subhanallah, Time really flies even when ur not having fun.. at all.. It means that the Day of Judgement and death is nearer every single day. At the same time, you have to do as much good deeds as though you are living forever..

Life is complicated subhanallah.. It meant to be.. My exam is tomorrow and I am really nervous. I ask Allah to give peace and calmness to my heart. I have an Oral exam for Arabic which I have to memorize. I ask Allah to make me remember if I forget.. Allah.. I am nervous indeed. I think it is because tomorrow is my first exam.

Alot of things going through my head right now and I dont know what I should do..

Tomorrow is the Day of Arafah inshaAllah. So I will try to fast and not miss the reward that Allah has prepared for us. Suddenly I feel the urge to go for Umrah.. But not able to at the moment due to financial reasons. I guess I need to start working.. but I wont be able to concentrate on my studies.. Oh God, what should I do?

Maybe I should focus on my exams first and I will be free on thursday inshaAllah.

When I thought about it. We know when our exams exactly are in the world and we make preparations for it. I mean extensive preparations..

But sometimes we do forget that we have a real exam awaiting for us but we dont know when. So we need to be prepared ALL THE TIME.. which I usually failed to be.. An exam which will determine whether you will receive your book with your right or left.. whether be eternal bliss or torment.. whether you will be amongst the beloved or cursed... Allahu Akbar!!

اللهم أجرنا من النار وادخلنا الجنة دار السلام !!

سبحان الله وبحمده سبحان الله العظيم

.ربنا آتنا في الدنيا حسنة وفي الأخرة حسنة وقنا عذاب النار

PART 1: Sheikh Hussain Yee in WHY STRESS?

2010-11-09T23:10:00.000+11:00

MultiTasking.. When im not supposed to.. =S

2010-11-09T00:03:00.003+11:00

Salams...

I cant believe that I have been staying at home for almost a week now.. Since my Myki expired on 2nd November LOL..

Yeah Im trying to save money by not going to the city to study.. So, I stayed home and supposedly study for my exams.. 6days!! (freaking out).. Anyways.. Alhamdulillah I'm still alive..

Having Facebook deactivated, appearing offline on MSN my life on the net has been quite empty.hehe.. But I tend to do lots of multitasking at home which I am not supposed to do because I need to study.. Oh well I used it as an excuse not to study haha..

For some reason I got easily distracted by people.. I mean very easily.. Thats why I usually sit right at the front of the lecture theatre so that I can concentrate on the lecture rather than people sitting in front of me. Apart from that, I'm short sighted hehe and I lost my glasses and broke the other one.. Im technically 'blind' atm.

Oh yeah so I have been cleaning the house, cooking for the family, do gardening in my backyard which is turning into a forest now.. I cant afford to be 'lost' in my backyard so I have to spend 2 hours every evening pulling out weeds with my hands.. (OMG my hands are aching and very rough now)..

I have been cooking various dishes.. I enjoyed cooking so yeah.. I dont mind.. Just that I felt guilty afterwards.. Btw, I have just finished making Teriyaki Chicken Sushi hehe..

Anyways.. Yeah alot of things are on my head now.. This morning, after Fajr Prayer, I spent 2 hours writing on what I need to do over Summer.. hehe I know that Im not supposed to coz I need to focus on my exams.. Hmm too excited for Summer although I may not have holidays.. Oh Well, inshaAllah it will be a fruitful one..

I need to get back to track with genetics and arabic... But I still need to do more cleaning in the kitchen especially with the stove, cupboards etc before our guests come from Selangor.. My bedroom is super clean now but not sure about tomorrow coz I will be studying in my room and my stuff will be everywhere.. ANyways InshaAllah Khayr..

Mode: Trying to be studious and spiritual at the same time for these 10 days of Dzulhijjah..

Oh Allah! Make it easy for me to fast, do good deeds and constantly remember You every second of my life.. Amin..

Towards a brighter day

2010-11-04T23:44:00.002+11:00

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

Verily, Indeed for every hardship, There is relief...

2010-11-04T18:41:00.003+11:00

Salams People..

I havent been updating my blog over a week now.. I have been busy with assignments and upcoming exams.. Extremely busy and trying hard to bring myself to study mode.

Alhamdulillah.. I have managed to finished my 2000 words essay by the will of Allah and His help through MashaAllah helpful and beautiful people around me..

Subhanallah.. I was in the verge of giving up but Allah lift my sorrow and help me from different directions... I was seriously in desperate need of His help..

And Suddenly Amira called me to offer her help to proof read my essay.. Safinah too..

I had a sudden urge to meet up with my lecturer the other day to ask his help in structuring my essay as I had lost quite a lot of marks in the previous assignment and Im not sure why.

Then I remembered Farhana.. MashaAllah she is a legend!

On thursday morning, I texted her.. I was so determined to meet my lecturer to ask for help but I didnt want to go alone so I asked Farhana to go with me. We met up at ERC but unfortunately our lecturer was nowhere to be found. So we decided to do our work in the library.

Farhana helped me from scratch and showed me her structure. Her points are similar to mine just that I didnt discuss about the Hijab. She was such a great help Alhamdulillah I regained my confidence to write the essay.. I wrote like 6pages of Key points and elaborations in 2 hours.

At 1pm I went to genetics lecture but the lecturer was very sick so he cancelled the lecture which is great hehe.. It was the last ever lecture.. So started our prac early..

And most importantly with the help of my two beloved auties.. Rosela n Fadilah who helped me on Saturday with the Essay and Wak min who supplied the satay.. It was phenomenal =D

And soon I realized that I've got heaps to catch up for genetics. I have to make myself understand the concepts so that I will be able to answer the questions in the Exam by the will of Allah. I did not do well in the test and I am determined to do well in the exam inshaAllah..

Safinah has given me a very tough advice that I need to put myself together and start being studious. Force myself to study. She said that you need to be smart for people to respect you.. That statement has blown my mind..

I have to maintain a positive attitude over this exam period and keep my morale high.. I will try my very best and will submit to Allah for the results..

I have a goal.. I've got an ambition..As a Khalifah, I have an ultimate goal.. I know now whatever I do is for Allah.. For the Ummah! For Islam! I have to strive to be a better person each day and not to let others ridicule my Deen! InshaAllah! I CAN DO IT!!

Oh God, Give me strength...

2010-10-28T00:29:00.004+11:00

I am in a great distress. My 2000 words assignment is due this Monday and I have never ever done a research essay in my entire life and 2ooo words is alot for a biomedicine student like me. I know it is not a big deal for an arts students.

I really enjoyed the subject but im literally suffering in the assessment. I'm doing this subject for the sake of knowledge, not credits. The essay weighs 50% for the entire assessment. I'm so scared and lost.. Oh God, please please give me strength. Don't let me despair from your mercy. I seriously dont know what I should do and who I should turn to.

I know that I am not articulate and I dont have the coherency in writing. But please make it easy for me Oh Allah! Nothing is easy except that You made it easy..

I am literally suffocating to do this assignment. I keep trying to write but I lost my thoughts. Deep inside I know there is relief after every hardship. I'm in desperate need of Your help Oh Allah! Please help me, your humble servant who needs You.

I will keep trying and will never give up. But give me strength to go through this test with patience Ya Raheem!

Ya Fattah! Iftah li Qalbi Ya Allah!

Ya Aziz! Strengthen me Ya Allah!

Now

I need Motivation

I need Strength

I need Assistance

I need a Peace of Mind

I need Comfort

I need to Cry...

Oh Allah, I need You..

The Search for Truth..

2010-10-27T00:38:00.003+11:00

Btw, when I was sitting in the ballieu library today, a chinese man approached me and asked: Do you know if the prayer room has a copy of the Quran?

I answered: No, but we have many copies in our Prayer Space in Pelham Street.
So I deciced to bring him all the way to Pelham street which is approximately 7mins walk from our current location and depends of the traffic.

The Prayer Space is off-campus but thank God we still have a space to pray. It is essential because we pray 5 times a day, not once a week. And before our prayer, we have to purify ourselves by washing some parts of our body including the feet. So it is very inconvenience for us to purify ourselves in the public toilets.

Along the way I asked him why did he need the Quran for. Apparently he needed for his research in regards to intercultural communication between malay speakers and something I cant remember. He came from Malaysia so he has friends who are Muslims.

I told him of the importance of looking for authentic sources rather than just randomly by any books in Islam in random bookshops. I told him of the complexity of Arabic which is to be understood in the context rather than just merely translate. He seemed to understand and was very grateful Alhamdulillah. May Allah guide him to the truth.

So yeah I felt a little bit uncomfortable that I was the one who brought him all the way to the prayer space. I thought of 'passing him' to a brother so that he cud show the guy how to purify ourselves, how do we pray etc. But there were no brothers in the Bros section because the prayer time is in an hour. He also realized that the Musallah(Prayer Space)is pretty far from the campus.

When I brought him to the brothers section, he asked me if he has to remove his shoes. I was about to laugh because I did it unconsciously and forgot to tell him. Luckily he noticed that I took off my shoes before entering. and gave him a copy of THE NOBLE QURAN with summarized interpretation by Darussalam Publishing.

It is very pleasing to see that they are people who are interested to know about Islam as such in a panel discussion we had last two weeks during the Islamic Awareness Week where we had 2 speakers, Bro Wasseem and Bro Yassir to talk about the Universality of Islam and The Misconceptions in Islam followed by Question & Answer Session. The discussions were very interesting when some atheist asked some questions about verses in the Quran which seems 'contradicting' to the teachings of Islam. such as Surah anNisaa : 34

Later he found out that he got himself a distorted version of the Quran interpreted by a Jewish Scholar which is pretty awkward. I wonder why....

Some of the distortions is the translation of Sura As-Saff which was translated as The Hordes rather than the Ranks.

May Allah guide all of us to the straight path inshaAllah.
=D

Islam & the West..

2010-10-26T23:41:00.002+11:00

This was the topic discussed in our last ever lecture today. Overall, the subject was intellectually stimulating and very informative. I have learned to know more about the world rather than just stuck in the lab dealing with the micro organisms.

I have learned a lot of things which makes me wonder what is goin on in the world we live in?
Why are these happening?

Anyways, yeah th elast lecture was pretty draining coz for some reason I was very sleepy and fatigue so I was not able to concentrate. But there is one point at least that I have learned. When the media says 'Islam and the West' it is VERY GENERIC..

Think about it..
When you say Islam, what aspects of Islam? Which theological group in Islam are you referring to? Which ethnicity? which sects? and mind you that there are A LOT of different theological group amongst the Muslims.. The liberals, Sufis, Shias, Sunnis, Ismailis, Mu'tazilites, Ahmadis, Duruz, Alavis, The fundamentalists, Talibans? The Arabs? Afghans? Asians? etc.. Soooooo which sect of Muslim are you trying to talk about?

And when you say 'The West'..
What aspects of the west are you referring to? Economics? politics? Societies?Education? Monarchy System? if so, which society? Which theological groups? Socialists? Marxist? Communists? Fascists?

Therefore, next when you speak about Islam and the West, do specify which you are referring to so that you do not generalize and say that ALL Muslims are bad or EVERYTHING from the West are not Islamic thus has to be eliminated or despised..

A reminder for myself and for everyone..
Peace Out

The Journey Behind The Veil.. by Kay Rasool

2010-10-26T22:46:00.002+11:00

I am reading a book titles My Journey Behind The Veil by Kay Rasool.
It is based on the acclaimed documentary on ABC My Journey, My Islam.

It is indeed a very interesting book which the writer, Kay Rasool interviews Muslim Women of different cultures and background. How they grew up wearing a veil, when they started wearing it, were they forced or was it their choice, who influenced them to wear it, what does it symbolize to them etc..

Im half-way reading this book. It is one of the MUST READ book I would say.
Some interviews captured my attention and trembled my heart. I have such a respect to those who really understand what they are doing and able to explain to others what they truly and proudly believed in. It is very interesting indeed.

When I read this book, I have come to understand that one can never be forced to do something without explain to them the wisdom and essence of why they do certain things. It is very wrong to say: You have to do this because I told you to do so.

InshaAllah I will quote some interviews when I have finished reading them.

I did it again... =( Pause & Ponder..

2010-10-24T23:43:00.001+11:00

Salams people,

How r u guys feeling? I felt really awful today as I did a detrimental mistake yesterday... I am in no peace right now. I feel so guilty yet it’s really hard to say sorry. You know sometimes you are too ego that you hurt others without thinking and you thought it was only a joke?

Yeah I cant get over it still and I cant believe how sometimes I could be so mean and offensive that I hurt people and you know that the mistake you make is detrimental? There is no turning back now. It has always been with guys. I have been repeating the same mistake over and over again and not learning from it. Sometimes I show no mercy towards guys which is very wrong thing to do. I need to learn how to respect them and be kind to them. Not insult and subjugate them. Astaghfirullah!! God!! Please Forgive me! Give me the opportunity to ask forgiveness to whomever I’m wronged to before I leave this World! Amin.

From high school, I used to tease guys alot.. I mean ALOT.. especially the quiet ones. I don’t know why but I really enjoyed it. Im quite childish at times and I did it unconsciously. This is what happens when all of your friends you hang out with in the community are underage.

But thank God. Now Ive got some older age friends although we are acting immaturely at times. To them I have learnt to express my feelings, thoughts, opinions and ideas (parallelism). It is not easy for me to actually express myself in any form because I am quite reserved at times. I am trying to exercise my ability to express through speech and writing although I do mumble sometimes LOL. But the thing is that I can’t talk on the phone for even 5mins and tell my whole life story. I have to talk face to face which means that I do talk to sisters, not brothers =D. I just realised that whatever happens in the world makes perfect sense. You just have to think a little deeply to make sense out of it.

Pause and Ponder.. InshaAllah you’ll find the way out =D

BROMANCE!! Memoirs of IAW 2010

2010-10-23T15:30:00.002+11:00

Credits to Awesome ASH MashaAllah!

SMILE!! Memoirs of IAW 2010

2010-10-23T15:11:00.003+11:00

Credits to Amira Salma Haruwarta.. =D

Long Awaited BROWNIES RECIPE!!

2010-10-21T23:30:00.004+11:00

Ingredients

400g Dark Cooking Chocolate
400g Brown Sugar
280g Butter
170g Plain Flour
2 Egg Yolk
4 Eggs
1 tsp Vanilla Essence

Methods

Preheat oven to 170C
1. Chop Chocolate and Butter
2.Double Boil Chocolate and Butter till melt
3. Meanwhile, prepare baking tray (rectangular) and grease paper
4. Pour Chocolate mix into a larger bowl
5. Add sugar and mix
6. Add vanilla essence/powder
7. Add eggs one by one and mix
8. Add egg yolk one by one
9. Add Flour and fold mixture.

Bake for approximately 45min

PS: Good Luck Trying and Sorry that Im not very good in giving instructions. =P

ADIOS, SALAM Alaykum =D

Given by My beloved Aunt Rosela Sa'ad =D

HQ: Peace Conference 2009 - Women's Rights in Islam by Dr. Zakir Naik - ...

2010-10-20T23:47:00.000+11:00

PEACE TV!!

2010-10-20T23:46:00.000+11:00

Salams,

I have been working on my final assignment which weighs 50% of the assessment. I chose the topic of The decline of Women’s rights in the Muslim World. Its pretty interesting but I’m pretty scattered right now Academically, emotionally, mentally and everything. There is something wrong with me but I don’t really know what it is. I keep having certain ’nightmares’ which make me kinda distracted and disturbed.

So I have started researching about Women’s Rights in Islam since yesterday and Ive been pretty unproductive today coz I was just watching videos by Dr ZAkir Naik. Another Prominent figure in Islam. MashaAllah he is a specialized doctor as well as a well-known Da’ie (A caller to the truth). You guys can research more about him on the internet. I really admire his work for Islam. MashaAllah Allah has given him the power of memory that he memorized the whole Quran and its INTERPRETATION word by word and the number of the verses as well as the page number. He was inspired by Sheikh Ahmad Deedat who was also an expert in comparative studies. They don’t only truly understand the Quran but other religious scriptures in detail as well! And they are steadfast with their religion.

Unlike me, I’m taking Islam in the Modern World and Arabic in Melbourne university. And learning Islam in a western country unlike the way we learn Islamic Studies in the Middle-East or Asia. It’s waaaay tooooo different. Most of the time very liberal and at the same time ‘logical’ thats why people agreed. Sometimes I did fell into the pit hole and got sooo confused. Sometimes I thought that i was being BRAINWASHED to think how they want me to think. I have to go back to all authentic sources on Islam as I know that reading the books in the libraries about Islam will make me more confused than ever. I have to go back to islamqa.com (if im not mistaken) recommended by knowledgeable scholars in Australia whom I studying with and it is very helpful as I have not been to any halaqas nor usrahs nor kuliahs in uni since Ramadhan and I don’t know why. Things happened. Yeah seems like Im the bad one huh.. Yeah I feel so distant and empty now I really need to go back to my Ramadhan mode. It was so beautiful.. I need to be consistent in my Ebaadah! Oh Allah! Please make it easy for me!

SO then I was browsing ZAkir Naik’s videos. And I saw his son’s giving lectures as well during the international peace conference 2009 in India. It was a massive event! . I think he is around 14yrs old MashaAllah and he is a reflection of his father. There are videos of his little daughters as well singing nasheeds by zain bikha and dawud wharnsby ali. MashaAllah the whole family is trained to be the asset of the Ummah.

But again you can never please everyone. Some thoughtless people were claiming that zakir naik is ‘abusing’ his children and trying to ‘sell’ his family. HELLLOOOOOO????

How is he abusing his children? I don’t get these people man! I don’t understand these people who made ridiculous comments, have they ever organized anything which call people towards islam and spread the universal truth? Like seriously, it is very hard indeed to organize such religious event and it is really hard to get people attend to those events. And from what I have seen, there were thousands of people who attended that conference be it Muslims or Non-Muslims.

And how many youth are deviated, corrupted and misled because their parents are too busy in search for materials and forget their responsibility as parents?

For me, Dr Zakir Naik, knowing that he is busy with spreading the truth all around the world, he actually brings his children so that they understand and being exposed to the work of da’wah because it is an obligation of every Muslim. And the responsibility that a person withhold is greater than a normal Muslim who just stays at home and worships Allah because a Da’ie holds the responsibility so that he is OBLIGED to do what he has called people to do and if he doesn’t, he will be first to be punished in the hereafter in the Hellfire. BUT if he spreads the knowledge and truth to thousands of people and every single one of them is practicing what he has preached, and Allah will reward him for every single being who implemented that deed and the reward continues even after he dies so as long as there is someone who still practices the knowledge. MashaALLAH!

That exposure to be in public, speaking about the absolute truth since childhood is absolutely amazing! I didn’t have that much public exposure and now I’m so reserved and not confident with whatever I am doing. I hesitate to talk about Islam to others. I’m amazed by the Christian youth who open up booth everyday infront of the library to preach their religion. Why cant Muslim youth do that?? A slap on my face.

So, to conclude, it is very incompetent of any of us to criticize and cowardly make ridiculous comments on youtube about people who are making extensive efforts to spread the message of Islam while we are just sitting at home in front of computer checking on other people on facebook. Especially that they are the prominent Scholars of Islam that you are complaining about. They are people of knowledge and more beloved to Allah hence should be respected. It is as if you are digging your own grave. If you do have any disagreement with whatever they said, I am sure most scholars nowadays have forums which you can ask questions and clarify your doubts. Scholars nowadays are updated with the modern technologies so InshaAllah they will definitely get back to you.

Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, I’m firstly reminding myself and all of you guys not to make comments out of ignorance and stupidity on random places without firstly refer back to the authentic sources, The Quran and The Sunnah and accusing the scholars for their stance.

Peace Out,

Umairah

Maher Zain - Insha Allah | ماهر زين - إن شاء الله

2010-10-18T18:42:00.000+11:00

Confusion between 2 Cultures..

2010-10-18T18:39:00.000+11:00

I don’t think anyone will read this entry anyway coz i haven’t been updated them for aaaages.. So I will just whatever im thinking without even re reading it. This is my weakness actually. I can never be bothered re-reading and rechecking things that i wrote. Be it in the exams, assignments, statements etc. This is a really bad habit. And sometimes I don’t think before I speak and people sometimes feel offended.

Back to the topic of fitting myself into a group, there are 2 groups that I’m currently often dealing with. One is a leisure and one is a prerequisite.

One group im involved in is SALP (Student Ambassador Leadership Program) in Melbourne University where we are assigned into groups of 3-7 and we have to construct a community based project on our common interest. Our group is called ALG 14 (Action Learning Group 14) an dit consists of 6 members initially but we recently an additional member so it makes up 7.

So after a series of meetings, we decided to construct a project which promotes healthy eating in kids. We initially thought that its going to be quite easy. We collaborate with Ardoch youth foundation and they referred us to Sunshine Kindergaten. I really enjoyed playing with kids and it reminds me of my childhood. The world is so colourful and fun. Nothing worries me. When you re in uni then you realized that how much you miss your children and you will silently wish that you can turn the time.

Anyways, of course, we do have disagreements at times but we managed to deal with it maturely even though I get annoyed sometimes. Like seriously, I don’t really like to be asked so many times that I have to do this and that. I know its my responsibility and I will do it. Just remind me once or twice. You don’t need to remind me EVERYTIME you see me knowing that the task is due like in 5 weeks. It simply tells me that you don’t trust me and that Im not reliable enough. Yeah I do get mood swings at time.Btw, apart from doing this project over 40 hours, we have to do 20hrs of University Service too. But I’m done with that.

Yeah sometimes I get confused between two cultures. Since I came here when I was 15( the prime age for youth) it was a major transition in my life. I have to adapt to both aussie and asian culture. Asian culture as most of u guys know, we need to be perfectionist and everything has to be in perfect order and you will be given a detailed explanation for every task that you undertake. As for aussie culture, you are given the task usually without any specifications abt how you want to do it. Its up to you as long as the outcome is satisfied. So you tend to learn how to do everything from scratch and that you can do one thing more than one way. In Asian culture, you are being told and stalk by others constantly as a consequence, yo don’t even have a space to think and your mind became lazy. That is what happening to me. But sometimes I mixed both cultures, I am lazy and I don’t like to be told what I need to do. So yeah. I would prefer mixing around with a group of various culture but we have the same mission. So that everyone will do their part without being asked to achieve our goal. Of course there are people who are lost sometimes but they will seek advice and assistance so that they know what they need to do. There is someone who overlooks but no one is a dictator.

They are the AWESOME and SUPERLICIOUS UMISes! I’ll talk more abt them in the next post inshaAllah.. =D

Fitting Yourself In....

2010-10-18T18:37:00.000+11:00

Salams,

The Weekend has just passed. I cant believe it is week 11! Another 1 more week we’re done for this year.. And the Battle begins.. I haven’t start any revision. Its very2 bad. Allah.. Although Im actually doin only 3 subjects.. 10 contact hours, half less than last semester because Im doing Arabic diploma alongside with my degree, I still feel that I don’t have time to revise or read.

Actually ,This Semester I have preoccupied myself with various voluntary activities. Be it from SALP University, Islamic Society, Community. I am enjoying myself so much. On the other hand, my studies were ignored. Hmm.. Im loving all my subjects except for genetics which sometimes too uncertain. But I definitely enjoy Islam in the modern world and Arabic although Im not that good at it.

Anyways, along the way I did experienced friendship, responsibilities, lethargy, annoyance, a lil bit of hatred sometimes(although Im not supposed to), disappointment, appreciation, rejection, ignorance, compliment, contentment and being reprimanded.

In life there are always things that you look for. A place for you to share you r opinions, laughter and hardship. There are places where you could only laughter but never cry on, where you could be serious but never laugh and a place where you could be serious, and laugh but never cry on.

You went to search all around you. Be it an organization, school mate, colleague, friends but you were unable to find a suitable place for you to settle. Ultimately you realized that there is something wrong somewhere. You started to question yourself. What is goin on? What is happening around the world? The world doesn’t seem friendly to me? I don’t belong anywhere..

In fact you have not asked yourself : Am I looking in the right place? Then you realized that you have to change yourself first. You have to spend time contemplating, reflecting and discovering who are you? What am I created for? What are my responsibilities? Why am I here? Why am I a human? The question goes on and on....

Suddenly you became frustrated. There’s no way out. You cant find any contentment, any solutions which will satisfy your quest. You have given up. You feel like you are useless in this world. You are not good with anything. You became depressed.. no one to turn to.. and then.. you remember one word.. Allah.....

Out of Words.. After 7 months..

2010-10-16T20:11:00.002+11:00

AaaaaaChoooooo! Alhamdulillah..
My blog is pretty dusty after 7 months of being left 'hibernated'.
I have lost my words eversince. Having difficulties expressing myself in speech as well as writing.
Even at this very moment it is really hard for me to organize my mind and write this entry..
Usually, people write on their blogs what they are having a hard time. Yeah Im having an unsettle moment right now. I have not been productive at all in my studies.. A lil bit distracted. I cant afford to be distracted as my exams are around the corner.. in 2 weeks.. but yeah..

Trying very hard to regain confidence and strength to move on..

7 months have passed.. Alot of things happened.. Pleasing and Distressing.. I feel a lil bit restricted on what I want to write. It may offend some people but everyone has a right to express their opinions.

Anyways, there are things in life that u like and dislike, u love and you hate.
I have been trying to eliminate the feel of hatred from certain things which I shudnt care of.

The most sensitive issue that I despise of is that of Nationalism.. The Question of where you are from. I was never able to comprehend the need of questioning someone where they came from. I mean which country they are from. Like seriously. What can u gain from it?

Personally, I dont usually ask people where they are from unless it is necessary coz I myself dont like to be asked. Often that people who asked me are those came from overseas. I do get annoyed sometimes but I have to deal with it. I dont favour it because I felt that I was labelled into a group and I was isolated. Although I know that they do not have any bad intentions. There is no significance to it. It doesnt mean that if I am Malay, I will be sticking around malays where ever I go. It doesnt mean that I will have alot in common with them. I dont mind religious wise. As in they are labelling me as a Muslim because that is something to be proud of because it's very obvious anyway.

Anyways..
There are infact other things which concerns me but again things that i shouldn't pay attention to.. I will try to inshaAllah keep my mind and heart open to recognize and accept others differences and respect their thoughts and opinion..

Keep Smiling,
Umairah

Awaken...Wake up all brothers and sisters!!

2010-03-16T22:27:00.001+11:00

AWAKEN

We were given so many prizes
We changed the desert into oasis
We built buildings of different lengths and sizes
And we felt so very satisfied
We bought and bought
We couldn't stop buying
We gave charity to the poor 'cause
We couldn't stand their crying
We thought we paid our dues
But in fact
To ourselves we're just lying

Oh...I'm walking with my head lowered in shame from my place
I'm walking with my head lowered from my race
Yes it's easy to blame everything on the west
When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

We were told what to buy and we'd bought
We went to London, Paris and
We made show we were seen in the most exlusive shops
Yes we felt so very satisfied

We felt our money gave us infinite power
We forgot to teach our children about history and honor
We didn't have any time to lose
When we were.. (were)
So busy feeling so satisfied

I'm walking with my head lowered in shame from my place
I'm walking with my head lowered from my race
Yes it's easy to blame everything on the west
When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

We became the visuals without a soul
despite the heat
Our homes felt so empty and cold
To fill the emptiness
We bought and bought
Maybe all the fancy cars
And bling will make us feel satisfied

My dear brother and sister
It's time to change inside
Open your eyes
Don't throw away what's right aside
Before the day comes
When there's nowhere to run and hide
Now ask yourself 'cause Allah's watching you

Is He satisfied?
Is Allah satisfied?
Is Allah satisfied?
Is Allah satisfied?

Oh..I'm walking with my head lowered in shame from my place
I'm walking with my head lowered from my race
Yes it's easy to blame everything on the west
When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

The Heart..

2010-02-04T00:24:00.003+11:00

Rasullullah s.a.w bersabda:

....ketahuilah bahawa di dalam tubuh (manusia) terdapat segumpal daging, jika ia baik maka baiklah seluruh tubuh, dan jika ia rosak maka rosaklah seluruh tubuh. Maka ketahuilah bahawa segumpal daging itu adalah hati. Hadith riwayat Al-Bukhari dan Muslim.

List To DO during Summer =)

2010-01-18T00:23:00.006+11:00

Musollah Project

Spring Cleaning for Sejadah n Telekung
Notice Board for Ballieu (buy cardboard or notice board @ Aldi)
Bookshelves needed for book sharing
Reshelving of books in Brothers' section (need to be done before orientation)
Prayer Mats pick up from Pelham
Search Ahadeeth to be pasted on the notice board
Contact Zaytoona
Tables for each section

Books

Curious incident (Read)
La Tahzan (in the process)
Wives of the Prophet (to be finished)
The kite runner
Kisah Anbiya dari Alquran
Novel Melayu
Blartz
The Sealed Nectar
Need to revise alkauthar notes but i have no idea how..
Sejarah Islam ( Umawiyah Abasiyah nk kene revise ISK nih)
Revise 40 Ahadeeth
Print Khalifah books
Read 33 Ways of developing Khushoo' in Salaah

Spring Cleaning

Room (done)
BAckyard (DOne)
Kitchen
Study Room -Stationeries n books
Toilet

Personal Goals

Book driving Licence test (ni yg lemah ni..)
Revise surah Yaseen and Alkahf
Revise juz 30, 29
Ikhlaskan diri untuk semua family events (nih yg paling susah)
Puasa Isnin n khamis ( Ya Allah permudahkanlah!)
SOlat sunnah rawatib
solat Tahajjud at least once a week
Relate everything that u do to Allah, the Ultimate Creator
Attend Alkauthar course
Attend friday classes
Establish realistic dream n goal SMARTly
Be an optimist n a confident person with high self esteem n self awareness

Health Program

Take supplement 3 times a day plus honey every morning
Lose at least 2kg NOT gaining hehe
20min exercise every day
NO food after 7pm
need to work out sleeping hours

(ni yg paling susah nih)

Youth Program

Attend every meeting
Be sincere in every action
Listen n cooperate whenever possible
put all ideas into action plan

TBC..
Goal is a dream unless written..

Bisakah aku mencintainya??

2010-01-17T15:59:00.004+11:00

Bisakah aku mencintai Seorang
Yang tidak pernah ku bertemu dengannya
Tidak pernah ku tatap wajahnya
Belum pernah ku dengar suaranya
Tidak pernah ku renung matanya
Dan tidak pernah ku kucup tangannya

Sedangkan dia amat mencintaiku
Oh Tuhan
Hadirkanlah rasa cintaku kepadanya
Hadirkanlah rasa rinduku untuknya

Kerana kekuranganku ini
Tidak bisa untukku menyintainya..
Sukar untukku merinduinya..

Ya Allah
Amat sukar menggapai cintaMu
Kerana destinasi cintaMu
Dikaburi oleh dosa-dosaku yang menggunung tinggi
kerana itu jugalah
Aku tidak pernah mampu untuk mengabdikan cintaku kepadaMu
Sungguh aku hamba yg hina

Namun aku harus cuba
Sedaya upaya
Tanpa putus asa dan rasa jemu
Kerana Engkau adalah Penciptaku..Pelindungku..
Dan dia adalah KekasihMu..

Oh Tuhan
Bantulah aku untuk mencintaiMu
Dan mencintai RasulMu
Karuniakanlah aku cinta itu
Jadikanlah Cinta itu lebih aku dambakan
Dari dunia dan segala isinya

Jernihkanlah wadah hatiku Ya Allah
Dari segala noda dan nista yang berkalut
Aku mohon kepadaMu Ya Allah
Mohon dengan sangat..

اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

Source: Dari Jeritan hatiku yg Pemiliknya adalah Sang yang Maha Agung..
Inspired by: Anasyid ketuhanan

Hari ini milik anda!

2010-01-09T18:45:00.002+11:00

Usah dikenang masa yg lalu.. Beramal lah hari ini seakan kamu akan mati esok hari..

Aku akan hidup hari ini , maka aku akan mengucapkan..:

"Wahai masa lalu yg telah berlalu dan selesai, tenggelamlah seperti mataharimu.
Aku tak akan pernah menangisi kepergianmu,
dan kamu tidak akan pernah melihatku termenung sedetik pun untuk mengingatimu,
Kamu telah meninggalkan kami semua,
pergi dan tak pernah kembali lagi."

"Wahai masa depan, engkau masih dalam keghaiban.
Maka, aku tidak pernah bermain dengan khayalan
dan menjual diri hanya untuk sebuah dugaan.
Aku pun tak bakal memburu sesuatu yang belum tentu ada,
karena esok hari tak mungkin ada sesuatu.
Esok hari adalah sesuatu yang belum diciptakan
dan tidak ada satu pun darinya yang dapat disebutkan."

* Petikan dari buku bertajuk: La Tahzan ( jangan bersedih) karangan 'Aidh Al-Qarni
Semoga bermanfaat! =)

The Deen Show.. =)

2009-12-26T11:32:00.001+11:00

SalaaMs everyone! Ive found this webpage with wonderful videos in it.. The deen show.. How cool is that??

Surf on to thus webpage n enjoy listening to the truth!

http://www.thedeenshow.com/videos.php

.......=(

2009-12-21T12:20:00.003+11:00

Sometimes i feel so frustrated. When i looked around.. observing other people.. their skills, their potentials, their strength, their goals.. i envy them..

I kept thinking what im good at and what i really enjoy doin... I have no clue..
there are things that i can do but i dont enjoy doin them.. there are stuff i cant even do but i enjoyed doing them.. im not good at that.. i stil cant figure out what my strengths are..

This really got me thinking as i was applying to be a volunteer.. they asked me what am i good at?... Im became discouraged.. there's nothing im really good at or something 'mad' abt me which nobody else has.. I listened to lectures here and there.. it gave me a lil bit of idea what to do BUT i ended up doin nothing bcoz i was discouraged.. I guess i need to talk to someone abt this n i need someone to lead me into thinking about these stuff.. I know ive gotta be grateful.. gotta be optimistic.. but i keep forgetting that and all i thought abt were I CANT do this I CANT do that..

I would call that having a Low self esteem.. living with uncertainties.. I dont even have a courage to look for a part time job.. i dont know why.. trying to encourage myself will soon bring abt despairment to myself.. its not gonna work..

milestones of this year gonna be finding out what im good at n enjoy doing it.. finding out my strength and build up my self esteem.. how to do that? i hav no idea.. typing these out makes me want to burst in tears.. believing is not enough.. i need to get up n work on it... what shud i do.. what must i do??... im still lost in despair..

Salahkah aku??

2009-12-18T15:49:00.002+11:00

KAdang2 aku terfikir ape yg aku buat ni betul atau salah? Kdg2 aku mempunyai keinginan yg mendalam utk melakarkan sesuatu tetapi aku mundur.. kadangkala aku diburu perasaan kesal yg amat sgt.. rasa benci akan sesuatu atau rasa cinta terhadap sesuatu.. semua perasaan ini membuatkan aku hilang pertimbangan.. hilang pedoman.. aku jadi kusut dlm kekalutan yg menghantui diriku.. Apakah yg harus aku lakukan...

Perasaan itu hadir tanpa dipaksa.. tetapi ia bisa dihakis n dicantas walaupun sukar.. terkadang perasaan yg dicantas itu semakin bertunas bukan semakin menghilang.. Tetapi aku terus cuba utk tidak melayani perasaan yg hadir dari nafsu.. Manakala cinta yg aku dambakan selama ini telah cuba ku tunas tidak lagi berbunga dek dosa2ku yg menggunung dan keikhlasanku yg tercemar..

Kenapa? Mengapa? Cinta itu belum lagi hadir dalam diriku? Cinta itu belum lagi berakar dan mekar dalam sanubariku? Telah ku cuba berkali2 dan ku gagal lagi.. Akan ku cuba utk tidak berputus asa.. Oh Tuhan, cintaMu yg aku dambakan.. Berikan lah aku cintaMu ya Allah!! Hadirkanlah rasa cintaku padaMu dan RasulMu walau setitik pun agar aku dapat pengabdikan cinta itu dan menikmati cinta dan Halawatul Iman.. Hapuskanlah segala rasa cinta yg tidak halal bagiku.. kerana aku adalah insan yg dhaif, hina dan sering terperangkap dalam jurang cinta nafsu yg mengecewakan.. Oh Tuhan.. peliharalah aku ya Allah!

Salahkah aku membenci sifat sesuatu kaum itu? bukan aku membenci mereka.. tapi sifat mereka.. kerana sifat mereka itu telah menghancurkan kasih sayang dan memutuskan persaudaraan.. ia juga telah menghapuskan pahala dan menambah dosa kerana bermegah2.. Ya Allah aku mohon kepadaMu, ampunilah aku, jauhkanlah aku dari sifat al wahhan! CINTA DUNIA DAN TAKUT MATI!! cinta kpd materi dan duniawi.. jadikanlah dunia ini jambatan utk keakhirat.. Amin ya rabbal alamin

SaLaaM MaaL HiJRaH 1431H!! =D

2009-12-18T11:20:00.002+11:00

Salaams!

It seems that i hav been ignoring my blog these days lol.. It is not that ive got nothing to update. Just that ive got soooo much to tell that i cudnt even type them out.. seriously..

Anyways.. can u believe that a year has passed? its a new year today! I have officially finished 1st year of uni.. time flies eventho ur not having fun.. and now 3weeks had passed ie i had my holiday for 3 weeks now.. hmm i hav no idea what i did.. not very productive i supposed.. family trips here and day.. gatherings.. i just realised how much we spent time together as family that i dont have time for myself. usually during school days ive always spent time by myself be it in the library or on the lawns.. sometimes talking to myself..hehe

Now that 3 weeks over i have 2months and a week to kill.. there are lots of stuff i wanna achieve BUT yeah..
Im not sure what i wanna achieve next year.. we are humans.. of course i have a vision but it is still unclear therefore im too afraid to be too determined.. for example, I do wanna study medicine and be a doctor inshaAllah.. BUT the goal is too far away and I myself is unsure abt it. yep i know ive gotta work on the milestones.. and i noe its not gonna be easy tho.. my sem2 results showed me how i need to study harder next coming years as uni life is not that easy.. altho i studied a month before its hard to get a distinction.. I will need to be more consistent in my studies and my spiritual beings..

When I observed people around me, I knew that in uni im exposed to the first step of real life.. I met all sorts of people be it political influenced, academic achievers, religious people, liberals, so called modern n civilized, atheists etc.. Im still learning how to react when confronting with them.. its not an easy task.. but as long as they dont provoke me or my believes, Im alright with them.. afterall, they are my brothers n sisters in humanity..

I really enjoyed uni life despite all sidebacks hehe.. what happened in the past will teach me how to react on the future.. I will always try to make the most out of today to prepare for the future.. inshaAllah.. and I desperately need to work on my spiritual needs.. Oh Allah please give me Your Love n guidance.. Amin

POW Mercy to the Worlds.....

2009-12-10T01:16:00.003+11:00

"we dont have money problems but we've got people problem

it is the value of man who improved the strength of Islam

Its painful when u dont feel the pain of other people

It u see the unseen then it is not a test"

POW from the Roadmap of Knowledge

2009-12-09T16:49:00.003+11:00

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

" Knowledge is like a deep ocean. Learn with a lifeguard first"

A goal is a dream unless its written down

Knowledge has the ability to corrupt your heart unless you fortify then with sincerity.

Books by itself cannot defend the religion

KNowledge will never stay in your heart unless u love it

Knowledge is better than wealth ,
Knowledge guards you while you have to guard your wealth

Knowledge increases with dispersion while money decreases

uniqueness

2009-12-03T12:58:00.003+11:00

I just found out a song by saujana..
A nasheed with a mixture of japanese n malay.. soo cool.. LOL
BUT this song is pretty hard to follow.. ive got to look at the lyrics when listening.. and i have on idea what message are they trying to convey.. probably ive gotta refer to a sasterawan hehe.. my BM has deteriorated over time lol.. or perhaps i cud listen to it again anad again.. and try to comprehend what it means

Kemuncak fujiyama bersalju
mendingin kalbu yang tersentuh
hijaunya pohon tegak merimbun
meranum rindu yang berlabuh

Sakura ungu mempersona
gugurnya di riba kembara
namun tak mampu menyajikan
walau secangkir nostalgia

tika bertemu dan berpisah
tiada jemu dan gelisah

saujana hanya di pandangan
di hati hanyalah sejengkal
saujana jarak yang memisahkan
di hati tidak berjauhan

utsukushii sakura wa ki kara
ochiteiru
hontou ni kono suto-ri ni uro no imi
aru no kana

me de tooku mieru kedo
kokoro ni tonari ni iru
kimi mou koko ni inai kedo
kokoro ni kimi ga mieru

bokura wa aeru nara
sekai wa yoku naru darou..

Pengirim : syifa' penawar
from liriknasyid.com

Retrievin childhood memories..

2009-12-02T23:51:00.002+11:00

Soutus Sofwa - Jam Tujuh

Salams everyone.. (if there is someone who reads my blog LOL)

ANyways days have been quite busy n relaxing at the same time.. Alhamdulillah im still alive and still able to open my eyes, breathe in the free oxygen without paying a single cent.. Alhamdulillah for all the ni'mah our Lord has given us..

Throughout the day ive been reminincing my childhood which i remembered from listen to nostalgic children nasheeds.. I had wonderful n somehow adventurous childhood i supposed.. haha coz i loved tagging along my older couzzies..

BLANK BLANK BLANK..

2009-12-01T22:33:00.003+11:00

Those words are the only words in my mind right now.. im totally lost, desperately need guidance from the Lord of the Worlds.. Im desparate indeed.. i cant express myself in an orderly manner..
Im scattered..

Sometimes i felt regretful why cant i be like them? Im supposed to do this n that n I shudnt do this and that.. I felt humiliated, discouraged, discontent with myself.. dissapointment, disheartened..

I have to occupy myself somehow this 3 months holiday.. I hav no idea what to do.. shud i commit myself by looking for a job? im lack of self confidence thats the problem.. I felt incompetent to do any work.. i havent find the answer that satisfy my quest..

what shud i do, what must i do, what am i supposed to do? its really hard to please everyone..
I guess i need a space to think n ponder n reflect.. i havent done that for quite some time..

With cascade of events happening in my life recently, i just realised that i dun have a time spent for myself to reflect.. Therefore im going out tomoro.. nowhere to go but i'll follow my instinct..

Oh God, please guide me.. No guidance shall i crave for except for Your Guidance!

Joke of The Day.. =p

2009-11-23T11:27:00.002+11:00

Yesterday, my lil cousins, my lil bro n I were telling jokes to each other.. and my lil bro came up with something really funny..

the riddle goes.. What is the tallest building in the world?

Hav a guess n i'll tell u guys the answer later.. Selamat Mencuba!

Indahnya Syurga Dunia!! MashaAllah!! =D

2009-11-21T11:18:00.006+11:00

Keindahan yg tidak bisa ku ungkapkan dgn kata2..
Hanya pujian yg ku ucapkan pada yg Esa
CiptaanNya yang mengagungi semesta
KepadaMu Ya Allah Ku Serahkan Cinta...

Lokasi: Di hadapan rumahku..
Model: Adikku hehe
PS: ini adalah photo original.. no photoshop used.. tetapi ciptaan manusia tidak dapat menandingi pandangan mata panca indera diciptakan Ilahi.. 100x lebih cantik pemandangannye..

Mencari2 Cahaya dan Ketenangan yg Abadi.. =)

2009-11-14T12:01:00.003+11:00

Sesungguhnya dengan mengingati Allah, Hati akan menjadi tenang...

Semenjak waktu2 exam ni, aku sering rasa tertekan.. ntah kenapa.. mungkin tak prepared. tapi aku slalu jugak study lepas kelas, stay back after class ke.. last sem aku tak wat mcm tu pon.. blh dikatekan aku ni serious ckit lah utk study this sem.. takdelah slack sgt.. almaklum sem1 tu x sesiape so xde lah smgt nk study..

pejam celik dah habis first year aku.. sgt pantas masa berlalu.. suka duka.. senyum tawa, tangis blm lagi hehe.. mcm dah berlaku.. byk pengajaran, byk menyesalan, byk ilmu yg ditimba.. byk org yg aku temui disana sini.. semakin fasih aku mentafsir erti hidup, erti persahabatan, erti keikhlasan, erti kesabaran, erti kegagalan, erti kemenangan.. dan erti pengorbanan..

dan tempat yg paling aku suke sem ni adalah musollah pelham.. walaupon agak jauh dari uni, aku rase tenang disana.. aku dpt bernafas, aku dpt melepas segala keluh kesah, rasa gundah dan kecewa.. aku bertemu org2 yg wajahnya bersinar2 dgn cahaya iman.. tiada hasad,dengki, cemburu dan benci..
kalau org nk cari aku, kat situlah.. dah mcm rumah kedua aku.. lebih2 ade beanbag n kipas sendiri hehe.. tu kalau cde org lah..takde org nk kacau aku.. sgt tenang dan tenteram.. aroma n konsep yg sgt menenangkan.. mcm2 org aku jumpe.. sesuai dgn ayat Allah dlm Surah AlHujurat ayat 13.

Tetapi saat yg paling mencabar ialah waktu aku diuji.. aku harus mengenal pasti itu adalah sebuah ujian dan harus tabah.. alhamdulillah ramai yg menegur.. waktu tu lah aku merasakan indahnya kemanisan iman..

Ku mengakhiri kata2 dgn serangkap lagu Mestica bertajuk Destinasi Cinta..

Destinasi Cinta yg ku cari sebenarnya terlalu hampir
hanya kabur kerana dosa di dalam hati
Telah ku redah daerah cinta yg Lahir dari wadah yg alpa
Tiada ku temui hanya kecewa menyelubungi..

Ku gelintar segenap maya
dambakan sebutir hakikat
Utk ku semai menjadi sepohon makrifat
moga dapatku bertemu direndang kasihMu

Namun ranjaunya tidak akan sunyi
Selagi denyut nadi belum berhenti
Durjana syaitan kan cuba menodai
Segumpal darah bernama hati...

Fi Amaanillah.. =)

Tendering your Nafs.. Highly Effective Anger management..

2009-11-12T19:53:00.002+11:00

Anas reported that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) passed by some people who were wrestling. He asked, "What is this?" They said: "So-and-so is the strongest, he can beat anybody." The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said,

"Shall I not tell you who is even stronger then him? The man who, when he is mistreated by another, controls his anger, has defeated his own shaytaan and the shaytaan of the one who made him angry."

(Reported by al-Bazzaar, and Ibn Hijr said its isnaad is saheeh. Al-Fath, 10/519)

Do not become angry and Paradise will be yours (a saheeh hadeeth, see Saheeh al-Jaami’, 7374. Ibn Hijr attributed it to al-Tabaraani, see al-Fath 4/465):

Remembering what Allaah has promised to the righteous (muttaqeen) who keep away from the causes of anger and struggle within themselves to control it, is one of the most effective ways of extinguishing the flames of anger. One of the ahaadeeth that describe the great reward for doing this is:

"Whoever controls his anger at the time when he has the means to act upon it, Allaah will fill his heart with contentment on the Day of Resurrection."

Qualities of a TRue MuSLiM..

2009-11-10T15:39:00.004+11:00

" And for the sake of your Lord, Be Patient" [Mudathir:7] '' Say: Surely my prayer, and my sacrifice and my life and my death are (all) for Allah, the Lord of the Worlds [Al-An'aam:162]

7 Conditions of Shahadah...

K- Knowledge which negates ignorance {Muhammad:19}
C- Certainty which negates doubts {Al-Hujuraat:15}
A- Acceptance which negates rejection or denial {Al-Imraan:7}
S-Submission which negates disobedience {Luqmaan:22}
S-Sincerity and Purity which negates shirk {AzZumar:14}
T-Truthfulness which negates hypocrisy {AlAnkabuut:1-3}
L-Love and Devotion to it and its people includes dissociation from those who have contempt of Allah's religion and His people {Al-Baqarah:165}

Words for thought...

2009-11-08T13:53:00.005+11:00

Salam alaikum.

Exams are coming.. So this blog will be a lil bit abandoned lol..Here are some ahadeeth and wisdoms for sharing.. May you guys benefit from it inshaAllah..

Console Those in Distress

The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said: "Every believer who consoles his brother in distress will be dressed by God in an apparel of honor on the Day of Resurrection."
Fiqh-us-Sunnah, Volume 4, Number 80a

Words for thought: 'If pen is mightier than sword, why does action speaks louder than words??'

What doesnt kill you can only make you stronger...

Wisdoms.. =)

2009-10-22T19:46:00.003+11:00

One Day, as I came back from uni feeling tired and exhausted.. I became furious quickly when my brother provoked me.. I cant stand being disrespected and challenged in such a humiliating manner.. So, to control my anger, i sat down next to my mum and dad on the sofa.. The conversation begins.....

Dad: what's going on? why do you get angry so quickly?

Me: he (my brother) keep provoking and annoying me, making me feel humiliated and terrible!! he delibrately saying things that will fuel my anger.

Dad: relax... as the eldest, u shud be the role model.. the thing is, ur brother acted like because u acted the same way to him.. u shud b patient and follow the way that the quraan teaches..

I was silent for a while... trying as hard as i can to soften my heart and relieve my anger. mind you i was shouting and arguing with my bro just before..

Mum: you shud do something that he will treat u better..

Me: i think the solution is coming back home very3 late or not coming back at all (i mean moving out to somewhere else).. so that all arguments can be avoided..

Mum & Dad: noo.. thats not right...
(and the conversation continues for another 5mins)..

Dad: now let me read to you the ayah in Surah Al-Hujuraat where Allah said in a very precise, beautiful manner..

And he reads Surah Al-Hujuraat with Tajweed and beautiful Tarannum..(Translation):

I seek refuge in Allah, from Satan the Outcast
In the Name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

O you who believe! Do not put (yourselves) forward before Allâh and His Messenger (SAW), and fear Allâh. Verily! Allâh is All-Hearing, All-Knowing. (1)

O you who believe! Raise not your voices above the voice of the Prophet (SAW), nor speak aloud to him in talk as you speak aloud to one another, lest your deeds may be rendered fruitless while you perceive not. (2)

Verily! Those who lower their voices in the presence of Allâh's Messenger (SAW), they are the ones whose hearts Allâh has tested for piety. For them is forgiveness and a great reward. (3)

Verily! Those who call you from behind the dwellings, most of them have no sense. (4)

And if they had patience till you could come out to them, it would have been better for them. And Allâh is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. (5)

These five verses had indeed gave a stinging slap on my face.. I was silenced.. I was lost in the comtemplation.. Allah is now talking directly to me.. Ashamed.. dissapointed with myselfl.. Being patient and lowering my voice in any arguments..are indeed one of the best ways to tame ur heart and being convinced that your are indeed the WINNER in the eyes of Allah.. stay calm and stay Cool.. i dont want my rewards are being taken away as they are not even yet sufficient to safe me from the Hellfire.. because indeed I AM A BELIEVER.. not just a Muslim..

And he continues..

O you who believe! If a rebellious evil person comes to you with a news, verify it, lest you harm people in ignorance, and afterwards you become regretful to what you have done. (6)

And know that, among you there is the Messenger of Allâh (SAW). If he were to obey you (i.e. follow your opinions and desires) in much of the matter, you would surely be in trouble, but Allâh has endeared the Faith to you and has beautified it in your hearts, and has made disbelief, wickedness and disobedience (to Allâh and His Messenger SAW) hateful to you. These! They are the rightly guided ones, (7)

(This is) a Grace from Allâh and His Favour. And Allâh is All-Knowing, All-Wise. (8)

And if two parties or groups among the believers fall to fighting, then make peace between them both, but if one of them rebels against the other, then fight you (all) against the one that which rebels till it complies with the Command of Allâh; then if it complies, then make reconciliation between them justly, and be equitable. Verily! Allâh loves those who are equitable. (9)

The believers are nothing else than brothers (in Islâmic religion). So make reconciliation between your brothers, and fear Allâh, that you may receive mercy.(10)

This Sura has indeed changed my life alhamdulillah.. I knew that from that moment, I have to change.. xchange for the better..change my habit to actually stop accusing my siblings if anything happens which i always did.. be a role model to my younger ones.. so that I can please my Lord and my parents.. so that I will too please myself and strive to be an ideal believer InshaAllah..

And he added: Do you remember what Luqman adviced his son?
I just nodded... Speechless.. He recited another verse..

"And turn not your face away from men with pride, nor walk in insolence through the earth. Verily, Allâh likes not each arrogant boaster. (Luqman 31:18)

"And be moderate (or show no insolence) in your walking, and lower your voice. Verily, the harshest of all voices is the voice (braying) of the ass." (Luqman 31:19)

Sadaqallahul Aziim.. Hope u guys did not get bored.. May u guys benefit from what had been written in this entry.. InshaAllah.. Wassalam.. =)

PS: Next Entry InshaAllah=> How can your misfortune be a blessing to others? =)

The Beauty of Nature.. LOVIN IT! =)

2009-10-22T19:00:00.005+11:00

Assalamualaikum waramatullahi wabarakaatuh..
Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim..

How are u guys goin? InshaAllah in a state of the best health and Emaan (faith)
I havnt update my blog eversince the school started i guess.. Days had been interesting really with interseting people and subjects.. It was a pretty busy life but now i just wish to sit and think.. and please my Creator.. InshaAllah

As i walked along the pathways in uni today.. i had come to realise that the 'dead' trees had became 'alive'.. its green again.. and I LOVE IT.. walking along south lawn on a perfect weather.. MashaAllah! Subhanallah! what a wonderful feeling! I felt that my heart and my mind is free.. peace and serenity rushed into my bloodstream and the wind just blew away my sorrows and hardships..

When u think abt it, even u know that the sky is always blue, the clouds are always white, the grasses are always green, but u will never feel sick of it.. imagine u sat in a room with the latest design furnitures and electronics, one day u will definitely feel bored of it.. u'll probably wanted to buy a new one.. hence its temporary.. but nature that Allah has created, u will never ever feel bored looking at it. never feel restricted to look at it and never feel regretful pondering abt it.. never that it will harm u in any way.. very interesting Subhanallah!

yeah next time ur on the way to school, to uni, or to work, have a look around you, above you and infront of you that sometimes that u may overlooked.. experience the beauty.. inhale the serene atmosphere.. enjoy the moment of peacefulness.. and im sure everyone of us will experience the feeling of bliss and gratefulness to The Lord of The Worlds..

Signing Off, Umairah

Controlling My Anger..

2009-10-12T21:07:00.002+11:00

a' oothubillahi minash shaitoonir rajiim..

Kwn2.. sesungguhnye aku sedang menahan marah.. sejak kebelakangan ni mcm cepat darah naik tapi tahan punye tahan.. 1stly asyik marah dgn diri sendiri je yg slalu react sblm berfikir.. terasa diri ni byk sgt2 dosa dan tak layak utk seorg suami yg soleh.. sentiase rase diri ni buat kesilapan dan slow sgt2.. apasal eh.? byk sgt dosa n maksiat yg aku dah buat ke sampai ilmu pon susah nk paham.. quraan pun susah nk hafal.. mungkin effort tu kurang.. tapi skrg mmg frust sgt2.. lebih baik aku diam.. diam seribu bahase..
sbb Rasulullah pernah bersabda: "Barangsiapa yg beriman kepada Allah dan hari akhirat, hendaklah dia berkata2 yg baik ataupun diam.."

ntahlah sejak dua menjak ni emosi tak stabil lah.. nk kate ade relationship problem xde pon haha.. relationship aku dgn Penciptaku barangkali.. mungkin aku semakin hari semakin melupakanNya.. sibuk dgn dunia dan nikmat dan lupa nk bersyukur? Mungkin dan Mungkin...

Skrg aku tgh nk lunakkan hati aku dgn baca hadith2 ttg anger management.. Byk sbnrnye yg berlaku yg telah menaikkan darahku ceh.. cikgu aku pon tadi mmg sgt2 sakitkan hati mencabar aku sbg seorg Muslimah.. tak pernah seumur aku hidup seseorg itu mempersoalkan ttg agama aku sedang dia itu jahil ttg agama.. aku taknk ckp ah sbb aku tadi dah terckp dgn sesorg dahtu menyesal lak sbb mengumpat.. Haiz,. Astaghfirullahal aziim!!

Dan jugak hal2 yg lain.. that has contributed to my frustrations.. Anyways.. mesti kuat Umairah!!
Reminder for Me aka Umairah Joffri of What our beloved Prophet has mentioned:

"Do not become angry and Paradise will be yours (a saheeh hadeeth, see Saheeh al-Jaami’, 7374. Ibn Hijr attributed it to al-Tabaraani, see al-Fath 4/465):

Remembering what Allaah has promised to the righteous (muttaqeen) who keep away from the causes of anger and struggle within themselves to control it, is one of the most effective ways of extinguishing the flames of anger. One of the ahaadeeth that describe the great reward for doing this is:

"Whoever controls his anger at the time when he has the means to act upon it, Allaah will fill his heart with contentment on the Day of Resurrection."

(Reported by al-Tabaraani, 12/453, see also Saheeh al-Jaami’, 6518).

Therefore Umairah, If you love Allah and His Messenger, you must struggle and strive against the whispering of shayaatiin and try as hard as u can to obey Allah and His Messenger.. You wouldnt want to dissapoint them my dear nafs..

Ya Maqaalibal Quluub.. Thabbit Quluubana 'ala diinik wa Thoo'atik..

I was ashamed..

2009-10-08T21:09:00.004+11:00

“The Quraan and the sunnah are like the two wings of a bird: If either of them were broken, it could not be able to fly.. “
“ Knowledge will never stay in your heart unless you love it”

I was amazed by a friend of mine.. He's an aussie in my arabic class. He is not a Muslim.. He is a Historian i guess.. he knows lots of stuff abt the world, the war, the politics, conspiracies etc.. He's knowledgable.. We had an hour chat outside the building after arabic class just now.. there were 4 of us.. We discussed randomly abt lots of topic.. and of course religious topic came out.. and suddenly the guy goes.. “yeah i read that in my quraan.. my quraan a lil small n i have to use a magnify glass to read it..” I thought to myself if i had misheard wat he said.. then out of curiosity, i asked him again.. “What did u say?” He goes.." my quraan, i have it in my bag” and he took out his quraan with translation from his bag. The Noble Quraan with commentary and translation published by Darussalam.. It is the one of most recommended and authentic translation that we ‘ve got these days. I was startled.. And im ashamed.. He then said goes on something like this:.. “I like to read it with understanding and i hate rode learning. Learning something but u don’t know where the sources are and why God asked u to.” Hmm Im like "yeah ure right.. and most of the time the commentary helps when we don’t really understand what it meant and when its ambiguous.” He even said something about tafseer!!
Im like reflecting on myself.. Am I as keen as him to learn what our Lord has said? Why Im lazying around and not trying to read what My Lord has said whilst proclaimed that I am submitting myself to Him? Woe to me.. Woe to me.. I have to be better as I am a Muslim and a servant of Allah. I have to strive as a student of knowledge to know My Lord and to love everything that He loves and hate everything that He hates.. Oh Allah, There is no Lord worthy to be worshipped but You. Verily my prayers, my deeds, my life and my death is for no one but YOU!
Action Plan:
Buy The noble quraan at ibc
Reading Quraan at least 5 pages a day with meanings n tafseer.. anywhere and everywhere.. be that in the bus, in the tram and in the train.. InshaAllah!! Oh Allah, help me to gain Your pleasure and protect me from the evil plans of Syaitaan!! Amin

“A goal is a dream, unless its written down on paper and acted upon to achieve it!”

For every hardship, is relief.. = )

2009-10-08T19:02:00.004+11:00

In The Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

" Have We not opened your breast for you (O Muhammad (peace be upon him))?
And removed from you your burden
Which weighed down your back
And have We not raised high your fame?
VERILY, ALONG WITH EVERY HARDSHIP IS RELIEF,
VERILY, ALONG WITH EVERY HARDSHIP IS RELIEF (i.e. there is one hardship with two reliefs, so one hardship cannot overcome two reliefs).
So when you have finished (your occupation), denote yourself to Allah's worship.
And to your Lord (Alone) turn (all your) intentions and hopes.""

Surah 94 Ash-Sharh ( The Opening Forth)

Assalamulaikum.. How r u guys? (if there's one reading it hehe)

Im great Alhamdulillah! =) It was really great today.. For some reason i was smiling all day.. I dont noe why tho.. i noe its weird but its a blessing from Allah! The Lord of the Worlds.. Subhanallah Wal hamdulillah Wa lailaha illa Allah Wa Allahu Akbar!! Allah has lifted the burden on me because He wills to..

Indeed, the verses above had soften my heart.. telah meluluhkan hatiku.. Remebering how stressful i was yesterday.. how depsperate and despondent i was.. and today i felt totally different.. its the inner strength that i gained.. its from Allah who gave me this strength and positiveness... Verily, along with hardship is relief.. this verse is very tru indeed.. It had made a significant impact on my life.. NEVER EVER LOSE HOPE IN ALLAH.. Stay calm n patient..

Honestly, I actually failed my test today which was horrible.. but i knew it was 100% my own fault. even though i studied, probably i didnt study enough.. Ive gotta do something.. Gotta start studying MORE SERIOUSLY from today.. Hmm i will have to do my arabic Hw today and tomorrow EDDA assignment which is due on mon.. arabic hw due on mon, fri test on tues.. pretty packed man!

Anyways Alhamdulillah.. Im grateful.. Allah the Exalted said in the Quraan:
"And (remember) when your Lord proclaimed: "If you give thanks (by accepting Faith and worshipping none but Allah), I will give you more (of My Blessings); but if you are thankless (i.e disbelievers), verily My punishment is severe." Surah Ibrahim: 7

Now, Im trying to be thankful in anything.. Im indeed just a servant of Allah.. Is imperfect and sinful.. But I know that Allah is Most Forgiving.. He listens to those who seek His help His guidance and His favours. But I have to keep improving.. to be an obedient servant and trying to Love Him and those who seeks His Love..

Im trying to question every single act that I did, doesnt it gain His Pleasure or Anger??

May Allah accepts all our deeds and prayers InshaAllah AMin. =)

SIgning off.. Umaiz90

Scattered.. kusut.. celaru.. bingung..

2009-10-07T13:40:00.003+11:00

Bissmillahirrahmanirrahim.
ALLAHUMMA LA SAHLA ILLA MA JA'ALTAHU SAHLA WA ANTA TAJ'ALUL HAZNA IZA SHI'TA SAHLA..

Ya Allah tidaklah mudah sesuatu perkara itu melainkan Kau menjadikan sesuatu itu mudah.. (this is not the translation btw)

Ish kusut.. sgt2 kusut kat otak ni..
bila berjauhan, mcm rindu, bila hari2 jumpe.. nk lari pon ade.. haha.. relax2 tgh ckp pasal sekolah ni.. kelmarin cuti mcm rindu sekolah.. tapi biler dah start sekolah, ish nk lari!!! byknye assignments yg x buat lagi.. byknye test yg coming up..online lain, yg written lain...
Ya Allah.. byk lectures aku x cover lagi.. seriously skrg aku sgt2 buntu.. nk minta tlg kwn, nanti dorg ingat ape.. sbb aku ni nk mintak tlg je cari kwn dahtu nanti dah habis buat bodoh.. dah tu nk wat mcmne ni??

sejak keblkgn ni rase mcm x sedap hati lah.. this week since abah aku kat s'pore sbb emergency nenek aku sakit, aku mcm x tentu arah.. byk nk settle beb.. tulah waktu cuti x terpikir pon bende2 ni. dah bukak sekolah.. 1001 bende kat dlm kepala otak aku ni.. esok aku ade quiz due tapi sempat eh update blog.. sbb aku tak tahan ah.. mesti nk luahkan jgk..

this week jgk aku tdo merata2... maksud aku tidor sane sini.. on sat, tdo umah kwn aku, on mon sampai hari ni tdo rumah makcik aku.. esok balik kot.. hari ni habis awal ingat nk study tapi aku xleh focus ah. padahal tdo nyenyak tau smlm.. xah nyenyak sgt.. maksud aku awal.. tapi mcm rase something yg x kene ah.. x tau ape.. Aku constantly doa byk2 semoga Allah tenangkan aku.. mungkin aku kene Muhasabah diri baliklah.. byk sgt dosa2 yg aku buat sampai aku celaru mcm ni..

dahtu dah pindah ni alamat surat aku semua blm tukar.. internet blm settle, nk kene call tapi aku x balik rumah mcm ne... ish..

byk sbnrnye ilmu nk share dari alkauthar course yg aku attend tapi time limited ah.. inshaAllah lain kali je.. nk solat zohor ni.. dah lewat.. ish3.. umairah ape nk jadi nih....

Fitrah Manusia... Sequel of previous entry

2009-10-02T16:11:00.002+10:00

Dimanakah fitrah manusia
Kasih sayang kini dunia sudah kehilangannya
Kasih sayang sudah gersang

yang ada hidup sendiri
yg wujud hasad dengki
yg ada prejudice
yg wujud perbalahan disetiap hari

Dimana sahaja hidup KEPURA-PURAAN
SENYUM DIHADAPAN DIBELAKANG DIBENCI
PERCAYA MEMPERCAYAI SUDAH HILANG
Perkelahian peperangan tidak kunjung padaM

yang miskin terbiar dan terbuang
yang kaya bakhil tamak dan sombong

TIPU MENIPU JADI BUDAYA
CURI RASUAH SERING BERLAKU
ZINA DAN ROGOL LUMRAH TERJADI
KRISIS PERPERANGAN DI MERATA DUNIA

MANA PERGI DIDALAM KETAKUTAN
KEMANA BERADA DI DLM KEBIMBANGAN
HATI SENTIASA TIDAK SENANG DAN TENANG
KEBAHAGIAAN SUDAH LAMA HILANG DAN GERSANG

Manusia oh Manusia..

2009-10-02T12:16:00.003+10:00

Mengapa dikala keamanan, manusia membuat kekacauan?
Mengapa dikala keharmonian, manusia membuat kehancuran?
Mengapa dikala kejayaan, manusia saling menjatuhkan??

Aku tak faham lah manusia.. org melayu specifically.. no offence but seriously, why are they doin these things to us?? knp tak senang bila melihat org lain mesra, ramah dan behagia??
mesti ke nk hancurkan kebahagiaan.. kenapa manusia nk mengata ttg ape yg org lain ade? rumah, kereta, kerje, walimah, etc.. the list goes on.. tak menyusah kite kan kan?

BE PROACTIVE!! kate ust supermuslim... Jangan nk menyalahkan org lain je. jgn nk cari kesalahan org.. Investigate lah dulu baru blame.. bak kate pakar motovasi terkenal.. 90% of our life is determined by our reaction to what happened.. 10% of which u can control, 90% of which we have control over.. kalau sesuatu perkara tu terjadi, pikir dulu kenape? ape yg diri sendiri lakukan.. kalau nak start scape goating kan nanti kecoh satu kampung..

utk org yg dizalimi, perbykkanlah berdoa.. kite pon akan turut same berdoa semua kebenaran resurface.. sesungguhnye ini ujian utk kite semua.. yg penting, mcmne kite nk react?? tu yg paling susah.. lepas satu bertaut, yg lagi satu terputus..

tu lah kdg2 bkn tk nk campur org. cuma lebih selesa kalau bergaul dgn org2 yg memahami kite,, memahami diri kite dan situasi kite.. sbb tu keharmonian tu dtg..
kalau tup2 org luar dtg dahtu perkara berlaku, org tu x tau ape yg terjadi.. mulalah accuse one another.. the worst is dia cari lagi kesalahan utk menta'kidkan bahwa dia berada di pihak yg benar.. Semoga ALlah memberi kesedaran kat org yg menzalimi tu.. Sesungguhnye Allah mengetahui siape dipihak yg benar. dan sesungguhnya Allah bersama2 org yg sabar..

kite tgklah sejauh mana org yg berbuat zalim tu boleh pergi.. Allah tu Maha Adil..

kdg2 org2 yg 'high class' n 'educated' ni silap jgk.. abuse org2 yg dianggap 'bawah' dari dia.. tu yg susah tu.. sbb dia pikir dia paling bagus n susah nk accept other's opinions, especially yg dianggap 'bawahan'.. yg xde degree, lebih muda, xde experience etc2... ni reminder utk aku gak..
jgn pandang rendah kat org lain.. kalau xleh pandang org tu wat bodoh jek ah eh..

tapi bile kite pikir balik, mcmne Rasulullah (saw) manusia yg paling sabar dan uswah yg terbaik atas muka bumi ni react waktu dia dicaci maki, dihina, difitnah...diumpat depan2.. dia tetap sabar je..

kite ni sesama islam, sesama melayu, duduk di satu negeri, satu kampung.. kalau nak menzalimi each other mcmne nk hidup beb?.. manusia xleh hidup sendirian.. nak mati pon org lain nk kene mandikan n kebumikan.. pikir2 lah ye..

RABBANA DZOLAMNA ANFUSANA WA IN LAM TAGHFIGHLANA WATARHAMNA LANAKU NANNA MINAL KHOOSIRIN...

PS: kalau dah tak selesa duk kat suatu tmpt tu, jgn nk blame the surrounding.. cari punca diri sendiri dulu.. usaha dahtu kalau xleh angkat.. pindah ah.. jgn nk menyusahkan org lain.. DOSA byk ooh buat2 cite n fitnah2 org..

btw ni 1st draft.. waktu tulis ni tgh emo ckit.. so maaf2lah kau terkasar tu ye..

Apa itu C.I.N.T.A??

2009-09-29T00:36:00.004+10:00

Pepohon Cintaku kian merimbun
Semakin dicantas makin bertunas
Tidak mampu mendustai hatiku
Rasa cinta fitrah manusia

Siapalah aku menolak cinta
Yang hadir dijiwa tanpa dipaksa
Hidup ini tidak akan sempurna
Tanpa Cinta dari Tuhan yg Esa...

-Kalimah Cinta (inteam)
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Inni Akhofullah(Sesungguhnya Aku Takutkan Allah)

Akan ku lari jauh-jauh untuk menghindarkan diri
Kerna aku takut akan seksaan dari Tuhanku...

Sukarnya diriku mengerti dirimu pada nilai dan harga diri
Apa yg ku tahu diriku teruji dgn keanggunan wajahmu
Andai dikau menjelma kubagai x berdaya
bergetar naluri dihati
lambaian sang bidadari kaburi mata ini
HARUSKAH KU MENCARI APA YG TIDAK PASTI...

Ku menjauh...tak mahu ku tempuhi
Perjalanan yang suram ini
Ku menjauh...daripada ku teruji
Apa yang tidak pasti..

-Inni Akhofullah (Mirwana)

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Destinasi Cinta - Mestica

DESTINASI CINTA- MESTICA

Menyingkap tirai hati
Mengintai keampunan
Di halaman subur rahmat-Mu, Tuhan
Tiap jejak nan bertapak
Debu kejahilan
Akan ku jirus dengan madu keimanan

Tak ternilai airmata dengan permata
Yang bisa memadamkan api neraka
Andai benar mengalir dari nasuha nurani
Tak kan berpaling pada palsu duniawi

Destinasi cinta yang ku cari
Sebenarnya terlalu hampir
Hanya kabur kerana dosa di dalam hati
Telah ku redah daerah cinta
Yang lahir dari wadah yang alpa
Tiada tenang ku temui
Hanya kecewa menyelubungi

C/O
Ku gelintar segenap maya
Dambakan sebutir hakikat
Untuk ku semai menjadi sepohon makrifat
Moga dapat ku berteduh di rendang kasih-Mu

Namun ranjaunya tidak akan sunyi
Selagi denyut nadi belum berhenti
Durjana syaitan kan cuba menodai
Segumpal darah bernama hati

(Destinasi cinta Ilahi)

Lestarikan wadi kalbuku, oh Tuhanku
Leraikan aku dari pautan nafsu
Biarpun sukar bagiku melamar redha-Mu
Namun masihku mengharap ampunan-Mu
Wahai Tuhanku? Ya Allah?

Bliss Vs Sorrow...

2009-09-28T15:07:00.002+10:00

Salams everyone! Hows holidays and eid goin?.. it must be fun.. it had been ages since i didnt have eid back in my country. but i guess ive gotta move on mate.. like seriously. i cant be clinging into the past and wishing that it will come true.. its not gonna happen anymore UNLESS.. ehem2.. nothing..

Oh well ive gotta go to school today but i was too exhausted n had a massive headache inthe morning therefore i didnt go.. another bludge.. i shud be studying instead on facebooking n blogging lol.. but not in the mood AGAIN.. OMG wat shud i do??? wat happened to my NEW REVOLUTION??? ARRGGHH!

Yesterday's open house was great alhamdulillah. even though i was very exhausted, it was enjoyable. For the first time in 4years, my friends came to my house for eid as well as for a visit.. I never had anyone come to my house to visit me in specific lol.. But alhamdulillah they enjoyed it and im grateful. There were 10 of them. Although i expected more to come but Alhamdulillah. Thanks guys for coming!! =)

But deep down i feel sorrowful.. hmm dont really noe why.. actually there is something that is bothering me.. im trying to get over it and get rid of it..

Hmm mcm dah lupa raye kat singapore mcm ne.. adelah org2 kate singapore raye best.. tapi ape best nye x tau lah.. but for me, kalau ade family alhamdulillah.. kene play around lah kan.. kalau masuk kandang kambing mengembik, kalau masuk kandang lembu menguak (bkn mengembu eh).. kalau masuk kandang harimau... manelah harimau ade kandang hahahaha... ok back tu story.. aku rase aku kene mentally prepared to change n adjust myself.. btul jgk makin kite balik makin kite asyik nk balik.. ape kate org dah ade momentum.. (ish physics) lebih baik x balik.. tapi sgt2 nk balik bkn sbb family tapi sbb youth programs.. rindu sgt2 camp2 motivasi.. takpelah blm masenye kot.

Seindah Lebaran.. Kembali kepada Fitrah..

2009-09-24T18:19:00.001+10:00

Diambang Syawal...

Sampai masanya Aidilfitri bertamu
Diruang waktu bagai biduk lalu
Disamudera kalbu lalu kiambang
Persaudaraan bertaut semula..

Terciptalah kemaafan Terukir keampunan
Pada yang berkasih sayang kerana Tuhan
Takkan lama ianya terpisah
Bertaut di hari raya..
- adaptasi dari album Semulia ramadhan Seindah Lebaran

Salams! Eid Mubarak to everyone! Selamat Hari Raya!
Taqabbalallahu Minna wa minkum!! Maaf Lahir dan Bathin..

Hmm tahun ni raye mcm mendak ckit kot.. x tau knp.. mungkin kak imah xde ataupon mmg mendak hehe.. xdelah plan2 nk kemana.. tapi semua buat last minute je.. penat lah jgk sehari actually 3hari berturut2 jln2 rayer.. penat tau walaupon duk kat kereta dah tu makan je hehehe =p.. sempatlah jgk msg kwn2 disini dan nun jauh disana ucapkan frasa2 kemenangan..

Tahun ni rayer pon byk lain makcik2 n bdk2 kot hahaha.. especially dpt kidnap bdk cute Jannah Iman!! ke hulur ke hilir aku bawak dia.. sampai sekali tu ade org tanyer.. ni anaknye brape tahun?? hahahaha tergelak aku.. ade rupe ibu2 ke?? kikiki.. Ish bahaye ni.. jgn cari pasal..

Mulanye solat kat padang barry rd dahtu ke hall.. dahtu berkunjungan mcm biase.. tapi rase mcm something missing.. x tau ape dia.. x rase puas.. ni nk kene muhasabah diri balik ni.. =(
apepun alhamdulillah balik dgn perut yg kenyang hehe..

Rayer kali ni pon nmpk 2 saudara yg ade conflict bertaut semula.. sampai mcm nk nangis tgk dorg nangis.. last year pon same ade org lain. skrg alhamdulillah sume dah resolved. Hari raya jgk dorg berbaik.. yelah takkan nk bawak sampai ke akhirat kan? jgn lah tanggung bende2 yg dah tertangguh ni.. itulah indahnye lebaran.. selain asyik kene usik je dgn makcik2 'seri pengantin'.. ish sungguh x patut.. hehehe
oklah rasenye dah penat nk beraya tapi xhabis lagi ni.. apelah org melayu, agama tu simple je.. raye sehari. knp kite sambut sebulan?? sgt2 x patut.. apekan daye~~~~

Akhir kalam... Ampun & maaf dipinta kepada semua yg pernah disakiti, yg tersinggung, diumpat, dicaci, dihina dan perkara2 yg tdk disengajakan.. Mohon dgn sgt diampunkan.. x nk kene jumpe kat akhirat nanti. settle kat sini jelah ye.. x mau settle kat akhirat.. lagi dahsyat nanti..

Maafkan saja segala sengketa lama
Yang membeku dijiwa
Dibulan yang mulia
Hari yang Bahagia
Moga ukhuwwah terjalin selamanya...

Signing off.. Umaiz90

Wonderful Day.. =) Indahnya Halawatul Imaan..

2009-09-17T22:42:00.000+10:00

Whenever u r down, whenever u feel lonely, whenever your mind is scattered... Suddenly this verse flash through your mind..

" And when My slaves ask you (O Muhammad pbuh) concerning Me, then (answer them), I am indeed near (to them by My Knowledge). I respond to the invocations of the supplicant when he calls on Me (without any mediator or intercessor). So let them obey Me and believe in Me, so that they may be led aright."
Al-Baqarah : 186

Remembering this verse you feel like Allah is talking to you. You are never alone. He constantly watching you, supporting you, giving you everything that u need not that everything u want.

"And it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know." AL-BAqarah: 216

We are indeed humans are incapable of judging wat is the best for ourselves when we have no guidance in life.. We are pathetically weak beings to the extend that we need others even that we are dead. therefore we can never say that we can live by ourselves and we dont need anyone. Whoever says that, he or she indeed a LIAR.

Hence let us all reflect on our deeds and doings that may affect others and ourselves, and try to change for the better. Afterall, we need examples and guidance.
Imagining a first year biomed student entering a laboratory.. with her lab manuals. Altho she has her lab manuals, she still needs her demontrators to assist her to complete her practicals in an orderly manner as required. Same goes to us.
Although we have the Quraan and we are Alhamdulillah Muslims. We still need guidance from our Lord and examples from our beloved Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) to show us how to become a TRUE MUSLIM inshaAllah, a servant most BELOVED to Allah.

Thats abt it for introduction. Hope u learnt something from it
Wassalam.. =) PEACE!!